Jennie's Journal with Emotional Pain Relief and Healing Aid

[jennielee]

I feel myself tested once again. My health has made me quite tempted to do things i shouldn't. This time though i am actually quite surprised at how well i am handling it. I was "told" i would have another test. Maybe this is just a test to see if id screw up again. So far so good. It would be nice to pass a test for a change, especially seeing as much as i screwed up previously. I feel very different now. These changes are really starting to take hold and change my life. I hope i have another chance at certain things, but ive also accepted that i shouldn't expect one. I made mistakes im growing out of, but that doesn't mean i am any less guilty of the mistakes i have already made. The only thing i can do is learn from them, stop repeating them and move forward. Looking back i really do wish we had cuddled more. Maybe one day..