AM5 Stage 1 - Day 14
NoFAP - Day 13
Life has been going pretty good. I missed a couple of days of meditation but besides that I've been doing everything else according to schedule. The girl I went on a date with last week has been calling me and wanting to meetup again so I'll set something up this weekend.
Work and business are going great.
As for going out, there some good nights where women were very friendly and open to me and some nights where women didn't seem to care at all. I would love to say it didn't, but the bad nights did affect my state of mind a bit. The good news is that I took charge of my thoughts and continued to think positively throughout all that so the negative feelings were quite mild in comparison to the past. In the past sometimes I would feel hopeless and it would take me a while to recover from it.
It made me realize that I'm still outcome dependent to a certain extent when it comes to women. If they give me a good reaction I feel good and vice versa. I'm hoping with the help of the sub I can learn to stop looking externally for validation learn to look within. In other words I want to develop the "IDGAF" attitude.
For the most part though I've been feeling great. Haven't had any urges to watch porn because I haven't been thinking too many sexual thoughts like I used to.
NoFAP - Day 13
Life has been going pretty good. I missed a couple of days of meditation but besides that I've been doing everything else according to schedule. The girl I went on a date with last week has been calling me and wanting to meetup again so I'll set something up this weekend.
Work and business are going great.
As for going out, there some good nights where women were very friendly and open to me and some nights where women didn't seem to care at all. I would love to say it didn't, but the bad nights did affect my state of mind a bit. The good news is that I took charge of my thoughts and continued to think positively throughout all that so the negative feelings were quite mild in comparison to the past. In the past sometimes I would feel hopeless and it would take me a while to recover from it.
It made me realize that I'm still outcome dependent to a certain extent when it comes to women. If they give me a good reaction I feel good and vice versa. I'm hoping with the help of the sub I can learn to stop looking externally for validation learn to look within. In other words I want to develop the "IDGAF" attitude.
For the most part though I've been feeling great. Haven't had any urges to watch porn because I haven't been thinking too many sexual thoughts like I used to.
