04-22-2014, 05:30 PM
Day 63
Final day.
I just finished reading through all of my posts in this thread for the first time since starting this program. It has been an interesting journey. There is still a lot of work to be done, and continuing EPRHA would definitely continue my progress but my impatience is getting the better of me with respect to starting AM.
So where am I at as I'm wrapping up this subliminal?
I'm living my life in a relative state of apathy. There are a lot of things that I would like to do that I generally end up not doing. And it doesn't bother me all that much except I keep making fits and starts at getting myself into action around them again and it annoys me that it's not consistent and automatic like it used to be.
One thing I'm definitely doing however, is starting my business. Jim Benson talks about the amount of work you complete being inversely proportional to the number of tasks you're working on and maybe deprioritising everything that isn't starting a business is just EPRHA's way of getting me to focus.
I'm still frustrated when I wake up in the mornings but not like I used to be. There's just a general annoyance that there are a lot of "should"'s that I'm not acting on. I'm also still afraid of relapsing into the depression I was in when I felt like I couldn't achieve my dreams and therefore felt worthless. As I said. There are still things to work on. But I'm comfortable with leaving those for later. The very pointed growth of Alpha Male awaits!
Final day.
I just finished reading through all of my posts in this thread for the first time since starting this program. It has been an interesting journey. There is still a lot of work to be done, and continuing EPRHA would definitely continue my progress but my impatience is getting the better of me with respect to starting AM.
So where am I at as I'm wrapping up this subliminal?
I'm living my life in a relative state of apathy. There are a lot of things that I would like to do that I generally end up not doing. And it doesn't bother me all that much except I keep making fits and starts at getting myself into action around them again and it annoys me that it's not consistent and automatic like it used to be.
One thing I'm definitely doing however, is starting my business. Jim Benson talks about the amount of work you complete being inversely proportional to the number of tasks you're working on and maybe deprioritising everything that isn't starting a business is just EPRHA's way of getting me to focus.
I'm still frustrated when I wake up in the mornings but not like I used to be. There's just a general annoyance that there are a lot of "should"'s that I'm not acting on. I'm also still afraid of relapsing into the depression I was in when I felt like I couldn't achieve my dreams and therefore felt worthless. As I said. There are still things to work on. But I'm comfortable with leaving those for later. The very pointed growth of Alpha Male awaits!
