(04-16-2014, 09:05 AM)jonathan4all Wrote:(04-16-2014, 07:56 AM)lokko Wrote: Day 48: I woke up this morning realizing I didn't have the subs on reply loop. So I started the subs and went back to sleep and I had lots of dreams. The dreams were trying to show me a path, that every action I take has a reaction. I figured in my dream all the paths I didn't want to take, and overcame some fears of being stuck in those paths. Everything was in a little bit slower in motion so not only was I thinking in the dream, I was also living as if it was a non lucid dream. To describe it better, it was as if I was re running a scene and my thinking level so third person and narrating, giving me helpful tips, put me into realization mode. It was awesome. I woke up feeling better. I realized all the fears I have overcome with this sub. The fear of dying has gone down 90%. The guilt and shame I had about sex and premature ejaculation went down 50%. I have become more careless about things that would hurt me, I just don't take those paths, I take paths I'm in control of. Haven't hit a plateu after all. However in the back of my head I still want to start MLS sub as soon as I can.
Excellent .. lokko... but I suggest you to run it at least 5 to 6 months. Result will be more permanent and you feel a kinda "easiness and natural" feeling deep down inside you. With this new standard of your own platform starting MLS will help you develop your cognition in superior level. So far I am happy to see , your metamorphosis : D .
Yeah that's what I had in mind originally, and I think that's what I'm going to do, even though my curiousity level for MLS is off the rooftops.
Day 49: It was my first day at my new restaurant job, I have to start off as a host for a month and then move up to serving and then bartending. Which in my head seemed like the right thing to do since I want to learn how to do everything in the restaurant. It was a great shift, this guys gf was giving me signs of interest but I'm sure she's trying to play jealousy games with her bf, so I didn't think much of it. Other girls connected with me, I felt social around them. One girl I was working with always asked if I needed help, ya you would say "it's their job to" but she was also giving me signs of interest, we kinda flirted but it was real innocent and friendly type. She's too young for me. At the end of the night she came to me before I left was really upbeat, said bye and I hi fived her. I'm feeling more social and letting my guards down again like I used to in the past.
However at one point during the night It kinda almost made me mad cause the guy training me was cool and all but in front of his gf he was trying to show off his authority, but I changed it into a positive vibe and it worked out. I just wish I could not get him to "show off" and respect me without me having to put up my guard and then he'd fear saying anything to me. That just makes the day draining and not me or him would be happy. So far my solution is to change into positivty when he does it, I need to look for ways to prevent him from initially playing power trip games. He's cool dude tho overall.
