04-09-2014, 09:54 PM
Day 41: I don't mention my dreams only because I don't really keep track of them however the dream I had lastnight was a little more interesting then anything. I dreamt about having the subs on and I can hear the messages of the sub, it was awesome. I wish I wrote them down when I woke up but I heard lots of positive affirmations. The next dream this girl I had on twitter was all over me and wanted me to be hers and she was drying humping me and I didn't cum which was a improvement. Usually I would've. Also had a dream where I went back to highschool and I was acting much more mature and being a leader. When I woke up I understand what that dream was trying to tell me, I've got to let go of the idea of "I wish I was in highschool again so I can start over and do better". Consciously I always wished I can go back, but I think this is the maturity part of the sub that kicked in, I feel the need to be more mature now.
As far as my day, I bumped into a old friend at the foodcourt and we were both talking about what we were doing and what our future had in store, we got into the convo so much that he called his work and said I'm going to take my break now, and we sat for half an hour and talked. I feel like my old social skills are coming back plus more.
I went on a job hunt, hit most of the restaurants that were close by. 3 of them didn't have any positions for a bartender or server and wanted me to start off as Expo/hostess/busser but I rejected, when I rejected the felt the need to impress me more but I still denied the offer. I feel like I'm more valued now and value myself more. I have 2 other restaurants who want me to come in for a second interview, and I feel like I know which one I'll be hired in for sure, so pretty excited for that!
Also tonight I was talking to my uncle and we went back and forth about some stuff, with his situation, being divorced and what not and me being career-less and still not knowing what I want to do with my future. He was supportive and so was I. He ended up saying, hey look if you excel in the restaurant business and know it in and out, we can open up a place. That got me interested! if my other uncles proposed that I wouldn't be excited, but this uncle is good with money, and what comes in and what comes out, he thinks in terms of profit, and I like that. So feeling motivated about this whole thing. Everything's getting back on track and I'm loving it.
As far as my day, I bumped into a old friend at the foodcourt and we were both talking about what we were doing and what our future had in store, we got into the convo so much that he called his work and said I'm going to take my break now, and we sat for half an hour and talked. I feel like my old social skills are coming back plus more.
I went on a job hunt, hit most of the restaurants that were close by. 3 of them didn't have any positions for a bartender or server and wanted me to start off as Expo/hostess/busser but I rejected, when I rejected the felt the need to impress me more but I still denied the offer. I feel like I'm more valued now and value myself more. I have 2 other restaurants who want me to come in for a second interview, and I feel like I know which one I'll be hired in for sure, so pretty excited for that!
Also tonight I was talking to my uncle and we went back and forth about some stuff, with his situation, being divorced and what not and me being career-less and still not knowing what I want to do with my future. He was supportive and so was I. He ended up saying, hey look if you excel in the restaurant business and know it in and out, we can open up a place. That got me interested! if my other uncles proposed that I wouldn't be excited, but this uncle is good with money, and what comes in and what comes out, he thinks in terms of profit, and I like that. So feeling motivated about this whole thing. Everything's getting back on track and I'm loving it.
