04-08-2014, 04:03 AM
Reality seems to be altering for me. nothing matters all that much now. my job the people i'm around. everything seems petty. Where ever i look i just see people walking around like zombies, it's like they're just distracting themselves until they croak. when i catch myself doing the same it frustrates me, angers me.
the idea that we've got to make the most of this life is really itting home for me. what's the point of trying to fit a square peg into a round hole, , what's he point of trying to fit into society when there's so much madness done en masse. better to walk youro wn path, follow your own intuition and judgement. spending time in not doing what you want is just a waste.
I should perhaps be conerned that people are falling away from me, ignoring me, or belittling me (that's to say people i have known before) but i'm not. i'm increasingly indifferent to what other people think or want from me. this is good and bad. 'bad; because where is the limit? without caring about social cues, or what others think - i wonder if i could just be some nut on the street with a sandwich board that says spongebob is the devil.
good because it means freedom. prized and valuable freedom.
that could also mean i get fired from my job for not giving a shit, it could mean i start to do an excellent job because i don't give a shit. hell it could mean i quit and go live on the street to experience being a hobo.
the idea that we've got to make the most of this life is really itting home for me. what's the point of trying to fit a square peg into a round hole, , what's he point of trying to fit into society when there's so much madness done en masse. better to walk youro wn path, follow your own intuition and judgement. spending time in not doing what you want is just a waste.
I should perhaps be conerned that people are falling away from me, ignoring me, or belittling me (that's to say people i have known before) but i'm not. i'm increasingly indifferent to what other people think or want from me. this is good and bad. 'bad; because where is the limit? without caring about social cues, or what others think - i wonder if i could just be some nut on the street with a sandwich board that says spongebob is the devil.
good because it means freedom. prized and valuable freedom.
that could also mean i get fired from my job for not giving a shit, it could mean i start to do an excellent job because i don't give a shit. hell it could mean i quit and go live on the street to experience being a hobo.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
