Day 36: Met up with some girl on facebook I had for awhile, she looked okay on fb but in person I wasn't attracted, we were supposed to go to a hookah bar but I was like lets just stay at your place and we started watching a movie, and I told myself whatever, and started getting on top of her and she got turned on and everything, I was fingering her at this point and she screamed fuck me and I have premature ejaculation so I just kept figuring her, I wanted head but not really so I came on my hands on purpose and then said I had to go. I was not attracted to her at all. Before LTU in cases like this I would have felt shame and guilt come up, but now I don't feel shameful or guilt, just disgust. It's better for me to never speak to her again then to repeat what I don't really want. Normally I'd go to her place another day and go for it again cause i'd feel really horny, but I'm already making the conscious self talk that I know I didn't like it, and I don't want it so I wont go.
Ah but anyhow I wish I could cure this premature ejaculation, I bought the sub but didn't have great speakers set up so did it for like 25 days and gave up. Now that I have great headphones I'm thinking about running them after LTU unless Shannon has a 4g version of it coming out sometime this year.
Ah but anyhow I wish I could cure this premature ejaculation, I bought the sub but didn't have great speakers set up so did it for like 25 days and gave up. Now that I have great headphones I'm thinking about running them after LTU unless Shannon has a 4g version of it coming out sometime this year.
