03-31-2014, 05:02 AM
Day 23(ish) of stage 3.
Quite a contrasting mix of solidness and not giving a shit with being quite insecure and frustrated.
I'm dealing now with strong feelings of under acheivement, and I've identified it for what it is, an inferiority complex. it's been there for a while but i had no name for it, just complaints about feeling like everyone was better than me. now i know the enemy more clearly i can tackle it.
I've noticed on odd occasion women respond really well to me. They seem to want to talk to me, spend time around me (this is relative to normal which is not at all). I do also find some women randomly staring at me as well as noticing much hotter women around me.
the sub seems to not be having such a powerful effect on me at the moment - or at least it's not noticeable in much else apart from the fact that i feel very tired.
This, i guess, is because a)I'm probably coming from a slightly more f'd up psychology than most, the self loathing i've put myself through for a long time is quite something, so having healthy self esteem is a challenge; and b) i wonder if it's just working differently, I've read with others how they felt nothing much for the first 3 stages and then it really started to kick in near the end of stage 4? I hope so. the changes listed are those I truly want for my life!
I've decided to can the FEFT for a while since I find sometimes i'm tapping out useful things. I had a great thing going with deciding on integrating the principles of taking responsibility and accepting things as they are. Overdosing of FEFT and thinking too much along the lines of law of attraction kind of messed this up.
That's not a criticism of these things, it's just i think you've got to do one thing at a time. if you want to embody certain values, or master a skill, going for too many things at one time just dissipates energy - trying to catch two birds with one stone just means i catch none!
So again back to the key principles.
1. accept the way things are
2. take full responsibility
3. take action.
My single goal to get financial freedom within the next year and a half, that is being able to leave my job with a stable base income on which to live relatively comfortably so i can devote time to my main interests.
This is no small feat of course. I've already made the mistake of starting and then telling people about it (not this forum, this doesn't count i don't think)
But when you tell people around what you're trying to do, somehow you lose energy in pursueing that goal - does anyone else find this?
Anyway onward I go.
Quite a contrasting mix of solidness and not giving a shit with being quite insecure and frustrated.
I'm dealing now with strong feelings of under acheivement, and I've identified it for what it is, an inferiority complex. it's been there for a while but i had no name for it, just complaints about feeling like everyone was better than me. now i know the enemy more clearly i can tackle it.
I've noticed on odd occasion women respond really well to me. They seem to want to talk to me, spend time around me (this is relative to normal which is not at all). I do also find some women randomly staring at me as well as noticing much hotter women around me.
the sub seems to not be having such a powerful effect on me at the moment - or at least it's not noticeable in much else apart from the fact that i feel very tired.
This, i guess, is because a)I'm probably coming from a slightly more f'd up psychology than most, the self loathing i've put myself through for a long time is quite something, so having healthy self esteem is a challenge; and b) i wonder if it's just working differently, I've read with others how they felt nothing much for the first 3 stages and then it really started to kick in near the end of stage 4? I hope so. the changes listed are those I truly want for my life!
I've decided to can the FEFT for a while since I find sometimes i'm tapping out useful things. I had a great thing going with deciding on integrating the principles of taking responsibility and accepting things as they are. Overdosing of FEFT and thinking too much along the lines of law of attraction kind of messed this up.
That's not a criticism of these things, it's just i think you've got to do one thing at a time. if you want to embody certain values, or master a skill, going for too many things at one time just dissipates energy - trying to catch two birds with one stone just means i catch none!
So again back to the key principles.
1. accept the way things are
2. take full responsibility
3. take action.
My single goal to get financial freedom within the next year and a half, that is being able to leave my job with a stable base income on which to live relatively comfortably so i can devote time to my main interests.
This is no small feat of course. I've already made the mistake of starting and then telling people about it (not this forum, this doesn't count i don't think)
But when you tell people around what you're trying to do, somehow you lose energy in pursueing that goal - does anyone else find this?
Anyway onward I go.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
