03-23-2014, 08:06 PM
Day 24: What a day at my bartending job. I'm new to bartending and i've made countless mistakes, and at the same type I have a high ego/ alpha alike personality, if theres such thing and my managers go crazy with me. They want to control me by using power they have and beyond, but I'm real selective with my words and body language that they can't. On top of that my ego is not yet conpletely balanced so I come off as a smirk. Usually in cases like that I'd just leave the day with that smirk and sense of pride, but i stead at the end of my shift I asked to talk to my manager, told her I know you're really frustrated with me in a nice way and she explained everything she was frustrated about in me and I listened quietly and she gave me the bad and the good of me amd in the end she outweighed the good over the bad and felt we were on good terms so everythings good again. I notice I'm becoming more patient, kind, and my high ego is slightly diminishing, yet I can still hear the self talks of the ego trying to push its way in, but the subs are reversing it or atleast helping me be aware of them and make a change. Yay for me! lol
