03-23-2014, 02:37 PM
Just got finished with my feft coach and gained some amazing insights. We uncovered some really deeply held beliefs about success and my relationships to other people. Namely that I feel anyone's gain is my loss - so I experience loss and fear on a daily basis, as I write, I see also that that word loss has poignance too, and that I don't want to lose, so badly that I can't healthily compete. I feel like I'm getting beaten all the time and so I just switch off and dissappear.
The roots of this ? I don't know, parents, bullies at school whatever, we tapped as much as possible. It feels like it might still be there a little but hey.
I'm committing to focus on my business and career goals now. My fear is that I will
Be perceived as too narrow, that I will become dull and boring and that I will Lose a lot of other things because of it. But this attitude has made me dissipate my energy on too many things before , meaning that I try to catch too many birds with one stone then get none!
I decided I would give this year to am6. Two runs, or near enough two by the end of the year. This business and career goal will just be an addition to that. Girls, relationships, all that will have to leave my focus now, my relationship to myself has to come first.
The roots of this ? I don't know, parents, bullies at school whatever, we tapped as much as possible. It feels like it might still be there a little but hey.
I'm committing to focus on my business and career goals now. My fear is that I will
Be perceived as too narrow, that I will become dull and boring and that I will Lose a lot of other things because of it. But this attitude has made me dissipate my energy on too many things before , meaning that I try to catch too many birds with one stone then get none!
I decided I would give this year to am6. Two runs, or near enough two by the end of the year. This business and career goal will just be an addition to that. Girls, relationships, all that will have to leave my focus now, my relationship to myself has to come first.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
