03-19-2014, 05:27 AM
Thanks Inthezone
I've been to the gym every day for the last three days - purely with the minimum goal of running for 10 minutes. I'm sure to all you healthy guys out there this isn't much but for me this is pretty big, firstly because I can't run at all and secondly because this is the most consecutive days of going to the gym ever for me.
Accepting things as they are and not fighting reality has enabled me to look at things more rationally and in terms of a long term process.
I have ADHD, and very limited ability to concentrate on work - thinking clearly is also hard for me. It's clear though that I don't have the infrastructure to support good concentration. For one my eating and sleeping habits don't support this. I've focussed my diet, and am trying to get enough sleep as well (though the latter still doesn't work, partly the subs just have me jolting out of sleep all night long, and partly because I just get into bed very late, sitting around looking at youtube etc. doesn't allow my brain to switch off.
The self abuse over not performing at work and in life is replaced with a more personal responsibility attitude. it's a long term project which i have to have faith in, and won't happen over night.
I find, interestingly, that when I meet girls I'm more playful. though this can be problematic, i met a hot girl the other day who is like a senior person at another company who i have to provide some work - being flirty, even subtly is probably not the best idea in this context!
I'll meet with my feft coach today to go through past memories to tap on them. I'll report back on how this goes and how it impacts things - after my last session i went through a period of serious fear, but this left after about a day and i was much more zen (though I don't know if this is to do with the new principles i'm currently trying to live by).
I got these off of david deangelo's 77 laws of success - 77 is one too many for me.
so for now the ones I will internalise again are
1) accept things as they are
2) take full responsibility.
I've been to the gym every day for the last three days - purely with the minimum goal of running for 10 minutes. I'm sure to all you healthy guys out there this isn't much but for me this is pretty big, firstly because I can't run at all and secondly because this is the most consecutive days of going to the gym ever for me.
Accepting things as they are and not fighting reality has enabled me to look at things more rationally and in terms of a long term process.
I have ADHD, and very limited ability to concentrate on work - thinking clearly is also hard for me. It's clear though that I don't have the infrastructure to support good concentration. For one my eating and sleeping habits don't support this. I've focussed my diet, and am trying to get enough sleep as well (though the latter still doesn't work, partly the subs just have me jolting out of sleep all night long, and partly because I just get into bed very late, sitting around looking at youtube etc. doesn't allow my brain to switch off.
The self abuse over not performing at work and in life is replaced with a more personal responsibility attitude. it's a long term project which i have to have faith in, and won't happen over night.
I find, interestingly, that when I meet girls I'm more playful. though this can be problematic, i met a hot girl the other day who is like a senior person at another company who i have to provide some work - being flirty, even subtly is probably not the best idea in this context!
I'll meet with my feft coach today to go through past memories to tap on them. I'll report back on how this goes and how it impacts things - after my last session i went through a period of serious fear, but this left after about a day and i was much more zen (though I don't know if this is to do with the new principles i'm currently trying to live by).
I got these off of david deangelo's 77 laws of success - 77 is one too many for me.
so for now the ones I will internalise again are
1) accept things as they are
2) take full responsibility.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
