03-13-2014, 05:35 AM
Stage 3 day...5?
Ok I'm losing track a little on this beast of a project that is AM6.
today for what feels like the first time in a while i have some sense of boundary and self worth back. i'm able to draw the distinction between what is my concern and what is not - i feel like in the last two weeks i completely lost this. I was stressing alot again about what other people were thinking about me and about being slow. I'm dyslexic and have adhd (according to the docs) and going into meetings leaves me compmletely zombi-terrified. I can't piece together information and link it to what i know and i doubt myself so much because of this that i end up stuttering and stimbling in whati'm trying to day.
basically i'm a little dumb i guess - but who gives a shit.
now i'm just doing what i can and getting on with my life(until the next breakdown)
Ok I'm losing track a little on this beast of a project that is AM6.
today for what feels like the first time in a while i have some sense of boundary and self worth back. i'm able to draw the distinction between what is my concern and what is not - i feel like in the last two weeks i completely lost this. I was stressing alot again about what other people were thinking about me and about being slow. I'm dyslexic and have adhd (according to the docs) and going into meetings leaves me compmletely zombi-terrified. I can't piece together information and link it to what i know and i doubt myself so much because of this that i end up stuttering and stimbling in whati'm trying to day.
basically i'm a little dumb i guess - but who gives a shit.
now i'm just doing what i can and getting on with my life(until the next breakdown)
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
