03-08-2014, 05:07 PM
Day 18
I have a lot of interest in self-determination theory and, separately, the release technique. Based on what I've learned and am learning I've hypothesised that a lot of what I'm experiencing is due to setting my life up around extrinsic motivations (money, status, etc). I have a lot of "wants" that are driving my actions instead of finding something that is intrinsically motivating and fulfilling.
It's a real challenge because letting go of these wants/ambitions/dreams feels like loosing something and taking a leap of faith into the blind unknown. I'm afraid that I will end up unsuccessful, unhappy, mediocre and full of regret if I don't pressure myself to start a business and become rich and successful. I want to travel and cruise on yachts all day and other similar things that represent freedom and I'm afraid that if I don't take deliberate action I'll end up being an average guy, with an average life, not living up to my full potential, and being pitied as a disappointment by my family.
I have a lot of interest in self-determination theory and, separately, the release technique. Based on what I've learned and am learning I've hypothesised that a lot of what I'm experiencing is due to setting my life up around extrinsic motivations (money, status, etc). I have a lot of "wants" that are driving my actions instead of finding something that is intrinsically motivating and fulfilling.
It's a real challenge because letting go of these wants/ambitions/dreams feels like loosing something and taking a leap of faith into the blind unknown. I'm afraid that I will end up unsuccessful, unhappy, mediocre and full of regret if I don't pressure myself to start a business and become rich and successful. I want to travel and cruise on yachts all day and other similar things that represent freedom and I'm afraid that if I don't take deliberate action I'll end up being an average guy, with an average life, not living up to my full potential, and being pitied as a disappointment by my family.
