03-07-2014, 11:03 PM
Day 17
I don't really know how to conceptualise what I'm experiencing. I'm less diligent and disciplined. I experience bodily and mental tension when I listen to the program. I'm feeling irate. I let routines slip and then feel vague disapproval at myself for doing so in amongst the complete apathy. I'm behaving like I have no hope or am feeling depressed but it's not reflected in my mental state. I'm behaving like I felt a long time ago and mentally I'm more stable and level than I've ever been. The discordance is confusing.
I don't really know how to conceptualise what I'm experiencing. I'm less diligent and disciplined. I experience bodily and mental tension when I listen to the program. I'm feeling irate. I let routines slip and then feel vague disapproval at myself for doing so in amongst the complete apathy. I'm behaving like I have no hope or am feeling depressed but it's not reflected in my mental state. I'm behaving like I felt a long time ago and mentally I'm more stable and level than I've ever been. The discordance is confusing.
