02-21-2014, 06:13 PM
Day 5
The haze has lifted. I've started playing games again though. But this time playing games doesn't feel like it's something I shouldn't be doing.
The dreams are gone. I haven't had strange dreams since day 3.
I'm finding that a lot of things I used to do automatically previously I now have to think about. "Should I brush my teeth?", "I forgot to prepare for breakfast tomorrow". I'm not following my routine. A lot of things that I used to do consistently for my own benefit have become laborious simply because I need to do them consciously now. It's a decision now as opposed to being automatic. Which means I've lost my consistency that was helping me reach some things I'm working towards.
It's starting to feel like procrastination but it doesn't have the negative, avoidance, edge.
The haze has lifted. I've started playing games again though. But this time playing games doesn't feel like it's something I shouldn't be doing.
The dreams are gone. I haven't had strange dreams since day 3.
I'm finding that a lot of things I used to do automatically previously I now have to think about. "Should I brush my teeth?", "I forgot to prepare for breakfast tomorrow". I'm not following my routine. A lot of things that I used to do consistently for my own benefit have become laborious simply because I need to do them consciously now. It's a decision now as opposed to being automatic. Which means I've lost my consistency that was helping me reach some things I'm working towards.
It's starting to feel like procrastination but it doesn't have the negative, avoidance, edge.
