02-12-2014, 02:19 PM
Already day 12 of stage 2. I missed a night over the weekend and lost my headphones so less exposure during the day.
Anyway here is what I notice.
I suddenly get overpowered with sexual energy every now and then and don't know what to do with it. My voice is deeper, I'm not so friendly any more - I used to be mr likeable doofus, now I'm just calm and slow talking. I cut off from entertaining people.
I got depressed yesterday mainly because I was making mistakes and I suck at my job. But I'm not giving myself too hard a time about it.
I really am drawn to femininity right now. I love being around women, I don't know that I see or feel it being reciprocated but sometimes I find myself surrounded by them, hugging me, leaning on me or just wanting to hold my hand - it's really strange.
Oh - and I'm fricken tired. Anyone noticing any of these things?
Anyway here is what I notice.
I suddenly get overpowered with sexual energy every now and then and don't know what to do with it. My voice is deeper, I'm not so friendly any more - I used to be mr likeable doofus, now I'm just calm and slow talking. I cut off from entertaining people.
I got depressed yesterday mainly because I was making mistakes and I suck at my job. But I'm not giving myself too hard a time about it.
I really am drawn to femininity right now. I love being around women, I don't know that I see or feel it being reciprocated but sometimes I find myself surrounded by them, hugging me, leaning on me or just wanting to hold my hand - it's really strange.
Oh - and I'm fricken tired. Anyone noticing any of these things?
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
