01-29-2014, 07:52 PM
Stage 3, Day 27(28)
Today, I got a lot of stuff done, and a woman got mad at me; well then.
A morning lab; this (other) young woman is taking part of it. We're doing measurements (wrist circumference, full body length, weight, etc.). I'm near her while she's laying down, with her lower cut shirt. God! She's looks fucking perfect! Now, I know a little bit about her, and she's a bit shy. I should find out if she has a boyfriend.
I did my exercises with an older (27 year old) woman; we were pretty flirty, but I don't see that going anywhere.
Anyways, I get home, and throw myself into each of my tasks. I do some readings, some flashcards, some more reading, then I practice vocals, print my resumes, practice acoustic guitar, have my meals, and head to work.
The work is going alright; the one guy with whom I'm near in age starts telling me about the girls he's "wheeled" this year alone (I did prompt him); he's a pretty normal guy. I'm not really having the sort of sex that I want to have.
Besides, the 'almost-sex' that I had a few days ago put a bad taste in my mouth. No particular reason why. Partially because she is a friend, partially because I wasn't 100% attracted to her body.
She tells me to contact her after I work. I have no idea what it was going to be. I got a bit worried about herpes and babies.
So, turns out that she was mad at me that I expressed interest in another woman shortly after what we had done, which is why she changed her tune very quickly. Then, as I do, I don't reach out to see "how they're doing" afterwards, so she thought I was ingnoring her. We spent 45 minutes on the phone clearing that up. We're on good terms now and we'll be going back to the way things were.
Today, I spoke a lot more softly, but it's centered.
The time for Stage 4 is fast approaching. I'm getting enough exposure on both the subliminals (AM and Max Learning Speed). Once again, if I have a short day, I'll just put AM on full priority.
Today, I got a lot of stuff done, and a woman got mad at me; well then.
A morning lab; this (other) young woman is taking part of it. We're doing measurements (wrist circumference, full body length, weight, etc.). I'm near her while she's laying down, with her lower cut shirt. God! She's looks fucking perfect! Now, I know a little bit about her, and she's a bit shy. I should find out if she has a boyfriend.
I did my exercises with an older (27 year old) woman; we were pretty flirty, but I don't see that going anywhere.
Anyways, I get home, and throw myself into each of my tasks. I do some readings, some flashcards, some more reading, then I practice vocals, print my resumes, practice acoustic guitar, have my meals, and head to work.
The work is going alright; the one guy with whom I'm near in age starts telling me about the girls he's "wheeled" this year alone (I did prompt him); he's a pretty normal guy. I'm not really having the sort of sex that I want to have.
Besides, the 'almost-sex' that I had a few days ago put a bad taste in my mouth. No particular reason why. Partially because she is a friend, partially because I wasn't 100% attracted to her body.
She tells me to contact her after I work. I have no idea what it was going to be. I got a bit worried about herpes and babies.
So, turns out that she was mad at me that I expressed interest in another woman shortly after what we had done, which is why she changed her tune very quickly. Then, as I do, I don't reach out to see "how they're doing" afterwards, so she thought I was ingnoring her. We spent 45 minutes on the phone clearing that up. We're on good terms now and we'll be going back to the way things were.
Today, I spoke a lot more softly, but it's centered.
The time for Stage 4 is fast approaching. I'm getting enough exposure on both the subliminals (AM and Max Learning Speed). Once again, if I have a short day, I'll just put AM on full priority.
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