01-24-2014, 01:37 AM
Been gym twice and it feels good, have a trainer which helps - it's made me reevaluate how I eat and live, and I notice that when I said to myself stop eating x or y, I just stopped, and have been sticking to it this week. Let's see if it continues.
My self criticism is disappearing, I have been socialising a fair bit even though I don't really want to, and I can't be bothered with getting angry at myself for not being the life of the party, or making people laugh or being witty. It's a much more grounded place to be. Without these fears (for now) I'm starting to carve out my own identity - which I was averse to before because of beliefs I had about the ego and it being destructive.
I'm pleased that I'm focussing realistically on work more, not trying to move mountains so I can impress my boss, but just getting on with it.
My self criticism is disappearing, I have been socialising a fair bit even though I don't really want to, and I can't be bothered with getting angry at myself for not being the life of the party, or making people laugh or being witty. It's a much more grounded place to be. Without these fears (for now) I'm starting to carve out my own identity - which I was averse to before because of beliefs I had about the ego and it being destructive.
I'm pleased that I'm focussing realistically on work more, not trying to move mountains so I can impress my boss, but just getting on with it.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
