Darwin 2014 - The Alpha Year

[Psiklou]

Stage 1 Day 18

God it's been a rollercoaster. Alot is coming up, fear, neediness, grief. Things are generally not great, and I was almost not going to post anything since it seems that it's all pretty negative at the moment. I'm being forced to look at reality head on, who i am, where i am, what i am doing and my limitations and it hurts!.

i'm centred though - the pain isn't making me do more stupid things, I'm learning to own it, own my failures and flaws and take responsibility for my life. Don't like it but it's the best thing to do for me now.

I am in day 8 stage 1 but I live the same crap and huge desire to procrastinate!