01-16-2014, 04:24 AM
Stage 1 Day 18
God it's been a rollercoaster. Alot is coming up, fear, neediness, grief. Things are generally not great, and I was almost not going to post anything since it seems that it's all pretty negative at the moment. I'm being forced to look at reality head on, who i am, where i am, what i am doing and my limitations and it hurts!.
i'm centred though - the pain isn't making me do more stupid things, I'm learning to own it, own my failures and flaws and take responsibility for my life. Don't like it but it's the best thing to do for me now.
God it's been a rollercoaster. Alot is coming up, fear, neediness, grief. Things are generally not great, and I was almost not going to post anything since it seems that it's all pretty negative at the moment. I'm being forced to look at reality head on, who i am, where i am, what i am doing and my limitations and it hurts!.
i'm centred though - the pain isn't making me do more stupid things, I'm learning to own it, own my failures and flaws and take responsibility for my life. Don't like it but it's the best thing to do for me now.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
