Hey Darwin,
Thought i'd post something as i've been through both Alpha 2011 and 5.0 and been through that anger phase.
In 2011 it was very pronounced.. the amount of anger coming up was alot. A few times doing security I just wanted to destroy somebody.. but I was able to control it. The thing is, this is an important part of it, you're getting pissed off at these people because they are trying to control or manipulate you or have bad intentions. It may have been that it even upset you in the past but you pretended it didn't.. this anger is part of making you stand up for yourself and become more assertive. By the end it will smooth out.
You're pissed off at these people who were looking down on you.. because that is the start of getting you to stand up for yourself. By the end of the program I had alot of respect from the guys I worked with cos I started talking crap back to them.. one guy who I didn't like much I started to give the crap back to and now i'm actually friends with him.. turns out he does it to everyone and alot of it is how he bonds with people. When I got comfortable with that and giving it back things shifted.
I did some EFT stuff during it, but i'm not sure it was the best idea. I may have dis-railed some of the stuff the program was trying to do. I still got great results, but a few times I felt like I tapped something and it mixed things up that program was trying to do.
Hope that helps, there's nothing wrong with you, it's part of the process. Just realize you don't need to act on those violent thoughts. Instead use this anger to be more assertive, stand up for yourself in ways that you couldn't before and finally say "no" to these idiots giving you a hard time.
This stuff is mostly the first and second stage in my experience. I can't speak for Alpha 6 but sounds like it's similar in this case.
Thought i'd post something as i've been through both Alpha 2011 and 5.0 and been through that anger phase.
In 2011 it was very pronounced.. the amount of anger coming up was alot. A few times doing security I just wanted to destroy somebody.. but I was able to control it. The thing is, this is an important part of it, you're getting pissed off at these people because they are trying to control or manipulate you or have bad intentions. It may have been that it even upset you in the past but you pretended it didn't.. this anger is part of making you stand up for yourself and become more assertive. By the end it will smooth out.
You're pissed off at these people who were looking down on you.. because that is the start of getting you to stand up for yourself. By the end of the program I had alot of respect from the guys I worked with cos I started talking crap back to them.. one guy who I didn't like much I started to give the crap back to and now i'm actually friends with him.. turns out he does it to everyone and alot of it is how he bonds with people. When I got comfortable with that and giving it back things shifted.
I did some EFT stuff during it, but i'm not sure it was the best idea. I may have dis-railed some of the stuff the program was trying to do. I still got great results, but a few times I felt like I tapped something and it mixed things up that program was trying to do.
Hope that helps, there's nothing wrong with you, it's part of the process. Just realize you don't need to act on those violent thoughts. Instead use this anger to be more assertive, stand up for yourself in ways that you couldn't before and finally say "no" to these idiots giving you a hard time.
This stuff is mostly the first and second stage in my experience. I can't speak for Alpha 6 but sounds like it's similar in this case.
