01-09-2014, 03:57 AM
Day 11
Things have been positive - which concerned me a little since i was guessing that more depression means that more is getting worked on.
but today..today i feel awful
I haven't been able to sleep, and its showing at work, just made a complete fool of myself at a big meeting - like i have officially ruined my reputation by answering questions in a retarded way.
Now this is interesting - previously when things like this has happened, I've spiralled into absolute misery and dispair, hating myself completely. Right now i'm really forgiving myself. I know I have insomnia, of course i can't function well without any sleep - so of course i'm giong to look stupid. What's more, when I'm done with this programme, in a year, two, whatever and I'v turned it all around, it's going to me even more enjoyable when people see what my progress.
Things have been positive - which concerned me a little since i was guessing that more depression means that more is getting worked on.
but today..today i feel awful
I haven't been able to sleep, and its showing at work, just made a complete fool of myself at a big meeting - like i have officially ruined my reputation by answering questions in a retarded way.
Now this is interesting - previously when things like this has happened, I've spiralled into absolute misery and dispair, hating myself completely. Right now i'm really forgiving myself. I know I have insomnia, of course i can't function well without any sleep - so of course i'm giong to look stupid. What's more, when I'm done with this programme, in a year, two, whatever and I'v turned it all around, it's going to me even more enjoyable when people see what my progress.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
