01-07-2014, 09:00 AM
Thanks Joronda, I sincerly hope it will get better ! I do think that my bad feelings come from ASC, because they started just on day 2. I do love my friends, I would die for them. But sometimes they are not just the kind of people I need. I sometimes need to have fun conversations without worrying about everything in my life. I'm always the leader of the conversations and when all the other people aren't able to actually make the conversation happen without your help, well it is not enjoyable because I need to really push myself those days because of my emotional state. Before ASC, I was really happy doing that.
And SargeMaximus, no I'm from Belgium
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Day 3
Today was a little bit better than yesterday. Tried to make a vlogging style video in the center of my city (lots of people !) to complement this journal and I wasn't too afraid to do it. That's an improvement because I tried to do that kind of stuff before but the only thing that happened is that I was speaking much too low.
Unfortunately, I will not release the video because I wasn't able to finish it. Will try to do one tomorrow !
I did not finish it because as the day went, I started to feel more and more sad. I wasn't able to work the last two hours of school :/
Also, today is workout day normally so I was quite happy to be able to put some endorphins in my system. But I had forgotten to bring a towel with me and since I live far from the gym, I couldn't go back home to take one and then go back to the gym. So workout delayed to tomorrow.
I had a bit more fun with my friends. I made a non-comic joke out loud in the classroom. Before, I would just think of my joke before saying it out loud but today I just said it without worrying of the opinion of the other people. I have to say that I felt quite bad after the joke anyways.
Money is coming, as is the day I'll be able to pay AM 5.0 for gay ! Yeah !
I will stay you tuned because my day isn't finished yet !
-Adri
And SargeMaximus, no I'm from Belgium
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Day 3
Today was a little bit better than yesterday. Tried to make a vlogging style video in the center of my city (lots of people !) to complement this journal and I wasn't too afraid to do it. That's an improvement because I tried to do that kind of stuff before but the only thing that happened is that I was speaking much too low.
Unfortunately, I will not release the video because I wasn't able to finish it. Will try to do one tomorrow !
I did not finish it because as the day went, I started to feel more and more sad. I wasn't able to work the last two hours of school :/
Also, today is workout day normally so I was quite happy to be able to put some endorphins in my system. But I had forgotten to bring a towel with me and since I live far from the gym, I couldn't go back home to take one and then go back to the gym. So workout delayed to tomorrow.
I had a bit more fun with my friends. I made a non-comic joke out loud in the classroom. Before, I would just think of my joke before saying it out loud but today I just said it without worrying of the opinion of the other people. I have to say that I felt quite bad after the joke anyways.
Money is coming, as is the day I'll be able to pay AM 5.0 for gay ! Yeah !
I will stay you tuned because my day isn't finished yet !
-Adri
