01-06-2014, 03:22 PM
Thanks guys, Yeah man, fk fear. I was walking by one of my bosses today, she totally ignored me; rather than be butt hurt and scared that I'd done something wrong, my immediate thought was - whatever, same with a meeting today - tremendous anxiety normally, today didn't feel it!
I'm not afraid of screwing up or getting in trouble - it would be unpleasant and in undesireable but I'd prefer not to walk around miserable and anxious even if it does get me to work harder, so I'm learning to work because that's what I want to do rather than because I'm scared.
This is of course all new. Jesus I want it to be at the end of 6 months already, fk that 12 months for the second run through to see who I will be then.
Continuing with the program, at night I have it playing on repeat from my phone which connects to a Bluetooth speaker, I can hear the high pitch squeak so I assume it's loud enough, only problem is I'm finding it hard to sleep!
Speaking of which, off to sleep - up for early morning yoga and affirmations.
I'm not afraid of screwing up or getting in trouble - it would be unpleasant and in undesireable but I'd prefer not to walk around miserable and anxious even if it does get me to work harder, so I'm learning to work because that's what I want to do rather than because I'm scared.
This is of course all new. Jesus I want it to be at the end of 6 months already, fk that 12 months for the second run through to see who I will be then.
Continuing with the program, at night I have it playing on repeat from my phone which connects to a Bluetooth speaker, I can hear the high pitch squeak so I assume it's loud enough, only problem is I'm finding it hard to sleep!
Speaking of which, off to sleep - up for early morning yoga and affirmations.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.
