01-02-2014, 12:10 AM
Stage 4. Day 11.
I noticed that since the switch to iOS7, I have decreased my listening hours per day (unknowingly) because I simply couldn't tell if I had covered enough hours. I think it was down to 7-9 hours on most days and some days hit 10-12.
Listening to the subs and coupled with some personal experiences, I seemed to have been enlightened. There was no shock or anything sudden, but these two days from observing myself in social situations, I have found myself to be in very good control of my emotions. Negative ones that come up that make my hands and feet cold go away quickly. I am able to speak my mind and I don't seem to get angry at all!
Ok, on the getting angry part, I don't know if it's a good thing. Because people around me expect anger as a way to show resistance or objection, and without it, they think "it's alright" and they can push me a little bit further.
Also on anger, I wonder if I am suppressing it or really have no anger... I think I am quick to anger (response), but if I let it pass (which happens easily), I just seem to not get angry at all. On one hand I'm in good control of my emotions, I am calm. But on the other hand I seem like a pushover???
I also find myself shaking my head at people who talk about "an eye for an eye" proudly, they share their stories of how, "oh I deliberately did that, because I wasn't happy that they did (insert some action that wasn't venomous)."
I noticed that since the switch to iOS7, I have decreased my listening hours per day (unknowingly) because I simply couldn't tell if I had covered enough hours. I think it was down to 7-9 hours on most days and some days hit 10-12.
Listening to the subs and coupled with some personal experiences, I seemed to have been enlightened. There was no shock or anything sudden, but these two days from observing myself in social situations, I have found myself to be in very good control of my emotions. Negative ones that come up that make my hands and feet cold go away quickly. I am able to speak my mind and I don't seem to get angry at all!
Ok, on the getting angry part, I don't know if it's a good thing. Because people around me expect anger as a way to show resistance or objection, and without it, they think "it's alright" and they can push me a little bit further.
Also on anger, I wonder if I am suppressing it or really have no anger... I think I am quick to anger (response), but if I let it pass (which happens easily), I just seem to not get angry at all. On one hand I'm in good control of my emotions, I am calm. But on the other hand I seem like a pushover???
I also find myself shaking my head at people who talk about "an eye for an eye" proudly, they share their stories of how, "oh I deliberately did that, because I wasn't happy that they did (insert some action that wasn't venomous)."
