12-26-2013, 11:45 PM
Stage 2, Day 30
A day with few events, but they still have great weight on my psyche, though I never thought they would.
The first element is that one member of the dysfunctional part of my family did something more dysfunctional, so I heard all about it. I spent time in the evening with another part of the family (my aunt and cousins), and saw their "dysfunction" (by which I mean, what makes them unhappy); they basically stress each other out when they don't have to. It really makes sense to me why people don't get what they want.
I held my tongue on saying things that would start the cycle of frustration in my aunt and mine (a sure-fire way of doing that is of mentioning the dysfunctional side of our family). This will keep me "downstream" according to Esther-Abraham Hicks, primo for manifestating.
My aunt and cousins invited me to watch the second Hunger Games with about 5 hours notice. So what did I do? I watched the first Hunger Games.
It gave me such an emotional response to the concept of if I had to get into the Hunger Games, and it would force into a role so opposite to 'who I really am'. So I had two and a half hours of FasterEFT tapping material. I did some more FasterEFT in the theaters for the second film.
I eventually stopped and simply enjoyed the rest of the film.
So, a couple of breathroughs and ah-has today. A good day. Happy Boxing day!
A day with few events, but they still have great weight on my psyche, though I never thought they would.
The first element is that one member of the dysfunctional part of my family did something more dysfunctional, so I heard all about it. I spent time in the evening with another part of the family (my aunt and cousins), and saw their "dysfunction" (by which I mean, what makes them unhappy); they basically stress each other out when they don't have to. It really makes sense to me why people don't get what they want.
I held my tongue on saying things that would start the cycle of frustration in my aunt and mine (a sure-fire way of doing that is of mentioning the dysfunctional side of our family). This will keep me "downstream" according to Esther-Abraham Hicks, primo for manifestating.
My aunt and cousins invited me to watch the second Hunger Games with about 5 hours notice. So what did I do? I watched the first Hunger Games.
It gave me such an emotional response to the concept of if I had to get into the Hunger Games, and it would force into a role so opposite to 'who I really am'. So I had two and a half hours of FasterEFT tapping material. I did some more FasterEFT in the theaters for the second film.
I eventually stopped and simply enjoyed the rest of the film.
So, a couple of breathroughs and ah-has today. A good day. Happy Boxing day!
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