11-29-2013, 10:38 PM
Stage 2, Day 4
I subscribed to Rion Freeberg's Holiday Challenge; it's where you watch the same Natural Grounding video 3 times a day, everyday until New Years : http://self-awakening.com/members/holida...-challenge
Did co-op today. Got there on time because I acted out of knowingness; I follow intuition a lot more, so where the '32' bus hadn't shown (it takes me 3 minutes from my co-op) and I was presented with '37', '39' (which would take me 15 minutes to walk, usually making me late), I decided to wait out of faith, and it eventually shows out. Of course it would; it's a bus.
Co-op is crunch time; the important dinner that I'm planning is Tuesday, today is Friday. So it's simply about getting all the details right. I'm more direct with talking to people, so it helps me propel my work more quickly.
When I got home, I played Harry Potter on PC (I'm not worried about getting hooked because it's a short game), had supper and then headed off to the open mic at university.
Here's how it went:
1st song: I didn't know the words, so it affected my guitar
2nd song: One string stayed tuned too high, so it changed some of the chords
3rd song: I get it right
I play two more songs:
4th song: nail it
5th song: nail it
It's a matter of any anxiety affecting me to some degree; I hold back because there's more at stake. I look forward to not worrying about it at all. And btw, tapping didn't get rid of all those emotions; for some reason, there are certain things that are too deep to dig out at the moment.
I was leveraging what I observed from the live band at the bar (the no-show open mic); I used dynamics to draw in attention, using pauses to my advantage, and lowering volume to create a vaccum, raising it to reward people who were listening. Swells are very powerful. The whole audience was quiet, especially in the last two songs.
I meet a young woman who writes her own music, has her own YouTube channel; perfect for a mastermind. I talk to her and she took my name for Facebook.
The girl I met with performed and did a formidable job as well; I invited her along to the party I was going to after; she politely refused with "I don't really drink", and I said "I won't drink either" (truth). She admitted that she wasn't feeling comfortable. I left it at that; she now has a book of mine until next semester. I really hope I wasn't giving her the wrong idea; she has a boyfriend, and I'm not interested. Maybe she's shy of parties or simply thought that I'm trying to date her. Our relationship is mostly business; we talk about advancing ourselves in our music careers, and we are still silly.
It's actually a relief to have friends with whom you don't want anything from.
Even the party; I felt rather indifferent. Either that, or the women weren't to my liking. I was chatting around, and went back and forth with my best friend there.
I left early because of work tomorrow, so I'll be sleeping now.
I subscribed to Rion Freeberg's Holiday Challenge; it's where you watch the same Natural Grounding video 3 times a day, everyday until New Years : http://self-awakening.com/members/holida...-challenge
Did co-op today. Got there on time because I acted out of knowingness; I follow intuition a lot more, so where the '32' bus hadn't shown (it takes me 3 minutes from my co-op) and I was presented with '37', '39' (which would take me 15 minutes to walk, usually making me late), I decided to wait out of faith, and it eventually shows out. Of course it would; it's a bus.
Co-op is crunch time; the important dinner that I'm planning is Tuesday, today is Friday. So it's simply about getting all the details right. I'm more direct with talking to people, so it helps me propel my work more quickly.
When I got home, I played Harry Potter on PC (I'm not worried about getting hooked because it's a short game), had supper and then headed off to the open mic at university.
Here's how it went:
1st song: I didn't know the words, so it affected my guitar
2nd song: One string stayed tuned too high, so it changed some of the chords
3rd song: I get it right
I play two more songs:
4th song: nail it
5th song: nail it
It's a matter of any anxiety affecting me to some degree; I hold back because there's more at stake. I look forward to not worrying about it at all. And btw, tapping didn't get rid of all those emotions; for some reason, there are certain things that are too deep to dig out at the moment.
I was leveraging what I observed from the live band at the bar (the no-show open mic); I used dynamics to draw in attention, using pauses to my advantage, and lowering volume to create a vaccum, raising it to reward people who were listening. Swells are very powerful. The whole audience was quiet, especially in the last two songs.
I meet a young woman who writes her own music, has her own YouTube channel; perfect for a mastermind. I talk to her and she took my name for Facebook.
The girl I met with performed and did a formidable job as well; I invited her along to the party I was going to after; she politely refused with "I don't really drink", and I said "I won't drink either" (truth). She admitted that she wasn't feeling comfortable. I left it at that; she now has a book of mine until next semester. I really hope I wasn't giving her the wrong idea; she has a boyfriend, and I'm not interested. Maybe she's shy of parties or simply thought that I'm trying to date her. Our relationship is mostly business; we talk about advancing ourselves in our music careers, and we are still silly.
It's actually a relief to have friends with whom you don't want anything from.
Even the party; I felt rather indifferent. Either that, or the women weren't to my liking. I was chatting around, and went back and forth with my best friend there.
I left early because of work tomorrow, so I'll be sleeping now.
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