11-17-2013, 12:46 AM
Stage 1, Day 20 (yesterday)
To recap, I had my co-op professor come to talk to me about some of my shortcomings, and knew just what to say in order to have me feel the negative effects of my actions (which I've come to realise that this is a very positive thing). I have to start taking more action in my co-op, and not spend so much time analysing. And hey, this means the exact same translates to my real life, hence the pain behind that information being given to me.
Stage 1, Day 21
I went to my group project meeting, then went to work at 1 until 9, then I went to a latina social.
My story must be kicking on; I'm starting to go out and worry about being social. One event, I feel the social anxiety and don't talk to many people. Tonight, however, I talked to whoever was there. I must've chatted to 50-60+ people tonight, basically saying "hey, how's it going?" and getting very positive responses from most people (some people early on got weirded out, which might be a weird vibe from my part), but that got handled with time. By the way, it was a latin based event with some salsa and a social. I had basically zero anxiety doing any of this.
Funny thing was that the one girl that caught my eye several times (sexy as fuck) throughout the evening was, later in the night, with her friends at a table. I just go up and introduce myself and kept things flirty and light, answer the standard questions when they were asked. Most of the conversation was between myself and her with her friends watching.
Long story short, we didn't hook up. But I got a ride home from them, and we have each other contact information. And we talked to each other a lot after we had "parted ways" and saw each other later. She was super chill.
The moral: Even the hottest women can be very chill and cool if you know how to talk to them through their "facade" that they have to create against guys in the matrix.
To work on: The sexy vibe, and less being in my head. Go out more when it works with my schedule (I'll be working 55 hour weeks from now on)
To recap, I had my co-op professor come to talk to me about some of my shortcomings, and knew just what to say in order to have me feel the negative effects of my actions (which I've come to realise that this is a very positive thing). I have to start taking more action in my co-op, and not spend so much time analysing. And hey, this means the exact same translates to my real life, hence the pain behind that information being given to me.
Stage 1, Day 21
I went to my group project meeting, then went to work at 1 until 9, then I went to a latina social.
My story must be kicking on; I'm starting to go out and worry about being social. One event, I feel the social anxiety and don't talk to many people. Tonight, however, I talked to whoever was there. I must've chatted to 50-60+ people tonight, basically saying "hey, how's it going?" and getting very positive responses from most people (some people early on got weirded out, which might be a weird vibe from my part), but that got handled with time. By the way, it was a latin based event with some salsa and a social. I had basically zero anxiety doing any of this.
Funny thing was that the one girl that caught my eye several times (sexy as fuck) throughout the evening was, later in the night, with her friends at a table. I just go up and introduce myself and kept things flirty and light, answer the standard questions when they were asked. Most of the conversation was between myself and her with her friends watching.
Long story short, we didn't hook up. But I got a ride home from them, and we have each other contact information. And we talked to each other a lot after we had "parted ways" and saw each other later. She was super chill.
The moral: Even the hottest women can be very chill and cool if you know how to talk to them through their "facade" that they have to create against guys in the matrix.
To work on: The sexy vibe, and less being in my head. Go out more when it works with my schedule (I'll be working 55 hour weeks from now on)
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