11-04-2013, 03:01 PM
Stage 1, Day 9
I had my first day in my new co-op placement; the people there were very friendly and time went by pretty quickly, plus it's closer to my apartment, but less bus access. Mostly pros.
Yesterday's pent-up feeling increased and welled up for several moments today; I realised that I've let a couple aspects of my life atrophy, and they're not where I'd really like them to be. Those areas are social life and love life.
I also felt like a complete fool for not offering my number to the cute asian girl at the gym.
What another poster said about neediness MIGHT be true for me. Today, I had this desire to be with that same asian girl with me on my bed, with her stroking my hair and looking deep in my eyes between kisses. That was a really strong desire that lasted for a couple of minutes. Could be a sign that I want a relationship? Or simply want to connect with women more? Perhaps neediness is coming up to the surface.
Just watched Geodude's video on self love and tapping
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_mDoPwovH6I
He wasn't lying about the handsome thing. Nice work.
Gonna tap away the awkwardness I feel about my older pics and video
I had my first day in my new co-op placement; the people there were very friendly and time went by pretty quickly, plus it's closer to my apartment, but less bus access. Mostly pros.
Yesterday's pent-up feeling increased and welled up for several moments today; I realised that I've let a couple aspects of my life atrophy, and they're not where I'd really like them to be. Those areas are social life and love life.
I also felt like a complete fool for not offering my number to the cute asian girl at the gym.
What another poster said about neediness MIGHT be true for me. Today, I had this desire to be with that same asian girl with me on my bed, with her stroking my hair and looking deep in my eyes between kisses. That was a really strong desire that lasted for a couple of minutes. Could be a sign that I want a relationship? Or simply want to connect with women more? Perhaps neediness is coming up to the surface.
Just watched Geodude's video on self love and tapping
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_mDoPwovH6I
(10-27-2013, 02:00 PM)Geodude Wrote: I'm handsome as hell, but when I had low self-esteem I looked like a goofy awkward loser in all of my pics. My self-esteem is really high and I'm now a lot more photogenic.
He wasn't lying about the handsome thing. Nice work.
Gonna tap away the awkwardness I feel about my older pics and video
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