10-27-2013, 10:01 AM
I'm 22 and still living at home. Believe me I hate that I'm doing this. But honestly my life has just been troublesome. I didn't get into trouble or anything, I think I was stunted developmentally. Struggling with depression and anxiety has made things incredibly difficult for me. But I've always focused on getting better. I've changed my diet, taking vitamins and stuff, using these subliminals, get plenty of rest, and getting professional help. I'm moving forward always, but not at a pace that others can really see.
I'm just in a tough place. Am I making excuses? I won't outright deny it or get defensive. Maybe I am, maybe I'm just an immature kid who refuses to grow up. I don't know anymore. Money is tight, I don't have any career ideas and I can barely make it through a work week as is. And that's me without having to pay rent or utilities. Guilt only makes things worse and I shouldn't do that to myself. But it's painful when you see others look at you and say "fix it, do something, you can't keep doing this". As if I haven't been trying to fix all this crap since I was 16. People want so desperately to shake me or tell me to snap out of it, and that's just not how it works. If it was that easy to fix it would have been done already. I understand why they get frustrated and why they think like that. I'm used to it and all I can do is focus on getting better and to keep moving forward.
I'm just in a tough place. Am I making excuses? I won't outright deny it or get defensive. Maybe I am, maybe I'm just an immature kid who refuses to grow up. I don't know anymore. Money is tight, I don't have any career ideas and I can barely make it through a work week as is. And that's me without having to pay rent or utilities. Guilt only makes things worse and I shouldn't do that to myself. But it's painful when you see others look at you and say "fix it, do something, you can't keep doing this". As if I haven't been trying to fix all this crap since I was 16. People want so desperately to shake me or tell me to snap out of it, and that's just not how it works. If it was that easy to fix it would have been done already. I understand why they get frustrated and why they think like that. I'm used to it and all I can do is focus on getting better and to keep moving forward.
