09-18-2010, 08:45 AM
Time for my weekly recap... this is week 4 and I will finish out stage one by next Saturday (I'm going with 5 full weeks per stage. It's much easier to keep up with than trying to do 32 days and plus, a little extra days per stage won't hurt any).
So far, I'm more comfortable looking lots of people in the eyes. Not totally comfortable yet but it's getting there quick. Honestly I can say that I have made more progress ever since starting the subs than I ever had in the past. I'm more care-free and a lot less outcome dependent now, and certainly less needy than in the past.
I can honestly say that the majority of my problems is rooted in my lack of self confidence, which has plagued me most of my life up until now (the AM sub is working on that bigtime).
To jump off the subject a bit... somebody care to define "male pattern blindness" to me? I have a hunch that it has something to do with not taking proper action but maybe someone can clarify it to me. Whatever the case, I know the Alpha Male sub will fix it, along with me getting out and also pushing myself to engage in conversation instead of keeping to myself.
I'm having more and more people open me up for convo now than in the past (or I'm becoming more aware of it, or both).
I'm also becoming more annoyed with the way some people act around me (not in this forum but in real life, etc.).
So far, I'm more comfortable looking lots of people in the eyes. Not totally comfortable yet but it's getting there quick. Honestly I can say that I have made more progress ever since starting the subs than I ever had in the past. I'm more care-free and a lot less outcome dependent now, and certainly less needy than in the past.
I can honestly say that the majority of my problems is rooted in my lack of self confidence, which has plagued me most of my life up until now (the AM sub is working on that bigtime).
To jump off the subject a bit... somebody care to define "male pattern blindness" to me? I have a hunch that it has something to do with not taking proper action but maybe someone can clarify it to me. Whatever the case, I know the Alpha Male sub will fix it, along with me getting out and also pushing myself to engage in conversation instead of keeping to myself.
I'm having more and more people open me up for convo now than in the past (or I'm becoming more aware of it, or both).
I'm also becoming more annoyed with the way some people act around me (not in this forum but in real life, etc.).
Get your pickles!!!
