09-14-2013, 01:19 PM
Day 16 of stage 4: Stage 4 is a drainer for me. I feel so uninspired to get out of my apartment on the weekends. During the week, I keep my crazy schedule but when I have no where I need to be, I just sit around enjoying the break. If I had to guess, I feel like my resistance is coming from the concept of liking myself. A negative self-image has popped up a few time today.
Last night I went out blues dancing. I was supposed to meet a friend there but he never showed up. It was still a lot of fun and I am getting a much more comfortable with just enjoying the moment rather than focusing on impressing the girls. Blues dancing is so much fun! When I first started it, I felt so dirty dancing with women that way. Now, I feel comfortable and it is really amazing. I got a few of the older ladies giving me the little waves goodbye as they left. It was really funny. Who knew all these cougars were on the prowl?!?
I was asked to dance by women most of the night and many commented how good of a dancer I was. It is almost laughable to me because I did absolutely nothing special dance wise. I know a few fancy moves in west coast swing that I could have used but I didn't do anything other than basic blues moves and I got more comments last night then any other night. It was because I was completely in the moment dancing and enjoying the music.
I'm planning on going salsa dancing tonight with my friends from class. I'll let you guys know if anything happens.
Last night I went out blues dancing. I was supposed to meet a friend there but he never showed up. It was still a lot of fun and I am getting a much more comfortable with just enjoying the moment rather than focusing on impressing the girls. Blues dancing is so much fun! When I first started it, I felt so dirty dancing with women that way. Now, I feel comfortable and it is really amazing. I got a few of the older ladies giving me the little waves goodbye as they left. It was really funny. Who knew all these cougars were on the prowl?!?
I was asked to dance by women most of the night and many commented how good of a dancer I was. It is almost laughable to me because I did absolutely nothing special dance wise. I know a few fancy moves in west coast swing that I could have used but I didn't do anything other than basic blues moves and I got more comments last night then any other night. It was because I was completely in the moment dancing and enjoying the music.
I'm planning on going salsa dancing tonight with my friends from class. I'll let you guys know if anything happens.
