09-07-2013, 12:31 PM
Thanks guys, I appreciate the comments!
Day 9 in stage 4: Today I've been lethargic and not really wanting to do anything. For some reason the weekend is much more depressing. I would think that having time off would be better than not but I feel like I'm not accomplishing anything so it is irritating me. I think stage 4 is uncovering a hornets nest of issues. Today, I really did not want to do the approach. On the way to get some food, I did a simple ask for directions type of approach and it was easy. The way back I saw a cute girl and I knew that I had to do the approach. The moment I saw her, all I could think was "F***!!!" I really didn't want to do the approach but I knew I had to.
The more I talked, the faster she walked. I just let her walk away after a bit. My mindset going into the interaction was very negative and I can tell she was responding to that. I was trying to get her to engage but she didn't respond. Very short answers.
My neediness has crept back up and this stage has released a lot of negative thoughts. I just keep thinking that this is a waste of time and that I will never get the results I want. I'm thinking that spending the day alone might not be a bad idea right now. These thoughts could have been under the radar for quite a while but I've been too busy to notice them.
Day 9 in stage 4: Today I've been lethargic and not really wanting to do anything. For some reason the weekend is much more depressing. I would think that having time off would be better than not but I feel like I'm not accomplishing anything so it is irritating me. I think stage 4 is uncovering a hornets nest of issues. Today, I really did not want to do the approach. On the way to get some food, I did a simple ask for directions type of approach and it was easy. The way back I saw a cute girl and I knew that I had to do the approach. The moment I saw her, all I could think was "F***!!!" I really didn't want to do the approach but I knew I had to.
The more I talked, the faster she walked. I just let her walk away after a bit. My mindset going into the interaction was very negative and I can tell she was responding to that. I was trying to get her to engage but she didn't respond. Very short answers.
My neediness has crept back up and this stage has released a lot of negative thoughts. I just keep thinking that this is a waste of time and that I will never get the results I want. I'm thinking that spending the day alone might not be a bad idea right now. These thoughts could have been under the radar for quite a while but I've been too busy to notice them.
