09-14-2010, 10:02 AM
It's a slow ramp up. I've noticing that I'm doing some things that I haven't done before. Eg at church Sunday, we do a "greet" thing at the start of the service where we get out and shake hands, say hello, etc. I was more inclined to move way out from where I was sitting and shake hands with quite a few people, including some pretty women so that's a plus. Previously, I was kinda afraid to approach them. That [approaching] seems a bit more natural for me now. I still have a ways to go but it's getting there.
My biggest problem in the past was attaching an outcome to something like that like, "hmm she seemed to not like that, etc." Which is BS thinking btw. It's more like now, I really don't care if the person has a bad or good opinion of me (being indifferent). I see that trait being to begin to take root because it has held me way back in the past.
I'm less than 2 weeks from beginning stage 2 so I expect things to ramp up quite considerably in the near future.
I'm less anxious than I was 3 weeks ago when I started AM. I'm less outcome oriented. I'm certainly less needy and more independent. I'm a bit more able to speak my mind w/o worrying about the consequences. I still have negative thoughts sneak in but I also remind myself that it's crap being pulled up to be released. I can pull myself out of that quite well.
With that being said, it takes a conscious effort on one's part to spot that and correct that on the spot!
I would also say that the subliminal is also causing me a physical reaction (sweating under the arms). Why? I don't know. I experienced the same thing when I did mirror affirmations back in Nov 2008 (subconscious / conscious throwing up a defense shield to new beliefs being installed, I guess).
My biggest problem in the past was attaching an outcome to something like that like, "hmm she seemed to not like that, etc." Which is BS thinking btw. It's more like now, I really don't care if the person has a bad or good opinion of me (being indifferent). I see that trait being to begin to take root because it has held me way back in the past.
I'm less than 2 weeks from beginning stage 2 so I expect things to ramp up quite considerably in the near future.
I'm less anxious than I was 3 weeks ago when I started AM. I'm less outcome oriented. I'm certainly less needy and more independent. I'm a bit more able to speak my mind w/o worrying about the consequences. I still have negative thoughts sneak in but I also remind myself that it's crap being pulled up to be released. I can pull myself out of that quite well.
With that being said, it takes a conscious effort on one's part to spot that and correct that on the spot!
I would also say that the subliminal is also causing me a physical reaction (sweating under the arms). Why? I don't know. I experienced the same thing when I did mirror affirmations back in Nov 2008 (subconscious / conscious throwing up a defense shield to new beliefs being installed, I guess).
