Zone's Alpha Male 5 Journal

[InTheZone]

Seven days until stage three. I can see the improvements starting to come together but the emotions are difficult to handle sometimes. Last night I had this feeling of being defective like I was the lemon that came off the assembly line. It wasn't like the night went all that bad but walking home I see all these guys standing outside the bars and clubs with girls hanging on them. I, of course, was walking home alone, again. I couldn't fight the thought of being defective like I was missing the programming to be capable of such a feat.

I must admit that I was so pissed off at myself during that walk that I ended up with a headache (first time thats ever happened) but by the time I got home, it was gone. I was fine again.

In other news I'm kicking butt at work. I keep on top of everything and I'm getting so much work done it is amazing.