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[Tiesto]

Hmm yeah that could be the case Tiesto, as the reason for why she broke up with you. But then again she kept cancelling on you, that would just send a red flag. It's ok though, do you honestly want to be with someone like that? The best thing you can do for yourself is stop talking to her and forget about her completely. I know that is hard, but she sounds like someone who has just been playing around with you. I have the same issues during my AM run amplified anger when I didn't feel respected or felt I was being manipulated, it's part of it. Just don't try to blame yourself for all of this. And don't let that ego get to you. It's your 1st? run-through of AM. It's not going to make you perfect, but the more you go on, the more you're going to naturally keep these women away from you.

Is marriage what you really want anyways?

I don't want to get married right now.. Still long way to go for that..

What you said is all true Ryan, thanks a lot for the advice, I really appreciate it, reading your posts always gives me different perspective on things that I missed out on.. I agree with you the best way is to totally disconnect from her, because it is no longer beneficial for me anyway to be in touch with her if it's only going to screw up with my mind.. And more AM runs is also in order..