09-01-2010, 07:25 AM
After having a semi-sleepless night, things are doing okay this morning. As far as feeling totally aloof, I really don't. I feel some but it's not blatantly obvious. One trait that I'm noticing is that I'm slowly starting to speak my mind more and more. The other day I was talking to my supervisor on how badly the renovation project was being handled in the conference center. Normally I would just not talk about something that was bothering me but I was in the mood to vent. I'm glad I have a bit of the other sub (BIATBW) mixed in a little, otherwise I would be more inclined to become a jerk, lol. 
Talking to new people is becoming quite a bit easier than it was, but I also chalk that up to using the ASC sub prior to this one and it's effects are still internalizing (possible that stage one of AM has a little of the ASC script... maybe?).
I called out loudly to one girl at work yesterday (she looks like a Hooters girl I know and I call her by that name as an inside joke) so I said "HEYYY WHERE ARE MY WINGS AND WINE?!" and she just laughed her head off.
As far as having overly negative feelings come up, I really haven't had any yet. Some negativity has come up but I expect it to as the sub pulls garbage up to be released. I also tell myself consciously that it's okay and it will be dealt with.
Regarding women in general, I'm definitely more picky now than I was... I won't put up with drama and I will more than likely pop into jerk mode and tell one off if I get my feathers rubbed the wrong way, so to speak.
There are pretty women out there with pretty personalities. I have that much faith!
And a lot of pretty ones with NO personalities.
I will say this, if they want me bad enough, they will have to work at it because I won't hand myself over on a silver platter.
Talking to new people is becoming quite a bit easier than it was, but I also chalk that up to using the ASC sub prior to this one and it's effects are still internalizing (possible that stage one of AM has a little of the ASC script... maybe?).
I called out loudly to one girl at work yesterday (she looks like a Hooters girl I know and I call her by that name as an inside joke) so I said "HEYYY WHERE ARE MY WINGS AND WINE?!" and she just laughed her head off.
As far as having overly negative feelings come up, I really haven't had any yet. Some negativity has come up but I expect it to as the sub pulls garbage up to be released. I also tell myself consciously that it's okay and it will be dealt with.
Regarding women in general, I'm definitely more picky now than I was... I won't put up with drama and I will more than likely pop into jerk mode and tell one off if I get my feathers rubbed the wrong way, so to speak.
There are pretty women out there with pretty personalities. I have that much faith!
And a lot of pretty ones with NO personalities.
I will say this, if they want me bad enough, they will have to work at it because I won't hand myself over on a silver platter.
