03-12-2013, 09:03 AM
(This post was last modified: 03-12-2013, 09:03 AM by ncbeareatingman.)
So much of what Andrew just shared in His journal...I can relate to so readily and easily. That I can identify on...Like Losing MY close grandfather at an early age I was 12 when he died,He left me is smile,his sparkal in his eye,laughter and his non bullshot approach to life... I still Miss MY grandpa,he left this world from Phenmonia in 1970.. it was weird cuz on day he was there, I went home from syummer vacation in august and Pa was gone in september...I Never understood why....there are some deep memories of the 12 years I got to know Paw-Paw....
THe isolation,the help me!,the I wanna fight,I wanna cry(and I have of late) the de-toxiing of Family and connection there of,Ive been her ein Dickinson ND for 4 1/2 Months now...1,700 miles form Home and a world away in someways.... the loneliness,the feeling of abandonment,again isolation,ect....all for me are sheeding the skin...when I say I feel Im already in the BAMM experience, I kid you not and in many way Im already in it and dont even realize how deeply so,that is....growth....one has to lose sight of familiar shores to gain insight,awareness and growth to new lands,new shores and beyound...
ON the hand usage thing,I would say IM 80% left handed,and 20% right handed. talk on the phone with MY left hand - MY Left Ear,Eat with MY left and of course write with MY Left,I Play drum left handedly but with a right hand drum set Up and criss cross back in forth,left right and back again...guitar with MY right( brothers Guitar,was the only one in the house,he's right handed) drive with MY right hand pre-dominantly,ect.....bass right handed and keyboards thats another story(Baby keyboard playing:-) I feel much much better today,yesterday I was dragging,detoxing physically as well as emotionally- majorly pissed off with Man kind,resentful,ect.. did some 'deep' innner clearing as well as over night clearing(this stuff is on going-one issues canhave several weeks or months of clearing around it)light healing,light realization process,ect.
Again IM so much better today,I';ll be out n about....today. stuff to git done ec,t.
NOw with BAMM up coming...I feel like the a combo of the Lion and the Scare Crow and da Tin Man about to go into the GREAT HALL to met OZ the Great and Mysterious Wizard. Scared some,nervous but knowing and wanting to go IN,knowing MY Spirit & Heart Needs to Go IN and walk the gauntlet,as it were.....I've faced some of the deepest things a humane being can face before..death,life after life, incredible Loss(Lots of it),sorrow,trauma,grief that felt endless(Many times) and yet Joy relief and ectasy that would make one almost piss himself with careless-ness. I Think I'm ready,I FEEL it and deep deep down know it,for BAMM.
I wil be traveling this summer...towards the west,not shure when,this came to me clearly this morning in a relaxed modus operandi-brain waves were still slown down- while quietly cooking breakfast...the intuition,psychic abiltiies have always been there and have been utilized thru out my life,now with the addition of BAMM,is gonna be deep to see where this all leads.(undrstatement)
Peace,Happiness and all that other good shit.;-) Keith
THe isolation,the help me!,the I wanna fight,I wanna cry(and I have of late) the de-toxiing of Family and connection there of,Ive been her ein Dickinson ND for 4 1/2 Months now...1,700 miles form Home and a world away in someways.... the loneliness,the feeling of abandonment,again isolation,ect....all for me are sheeding the skin...when I say I feel Im already in the BAMM experience, I kid you not and in many way Im already in it and dont even realize how deeply so,that is....growth....one has to lose sight of familiar shores to gain insight,awareness and growth to new lands,new shores and beyound...
ON the hand usage thing,I would say IM 80% left handed,and 20% right handed. talk on the phone with MY left hand - MY Left Ear,Eat with MY left and of course write with MY Left,I Play drum left handedly but with a right hand drum set Up and criss cross back in forth,left right and back again...guitar with MY right( brothers Guitar,was the only one in the house,he's right handed) drive with MY right hand pre-dominantly,ect.....bass right handed and keyboards thats another story(Baby keyboard playing:-) I feel much much better today,yesterday I was dragging,detoxing physically as well as emotionally- majorly pissed off with Man kind,resentful,ect.. did some 'deep' innner clearing as well as over night clearing(this stuff is on going-one issues canhave several weeks or months of clearing around it)light healing,light realization process,ect.
Again IM so much better today,I';ll be out n about....today. stuff to git done ec,t.
NOw with BAMM up coming...I feel like the a combo of the Lion and the Scare Crow and da Tin Man about to go into the GREAT HALL to met OZ the Great and Mysterious Wizard. Scared some,nervous but knowing and wanting to go IN,knowing MY Spirit & Heart Needs to Go IN and walk the gauntlet,as it were.....I've faced some of the deepest things a humane being can face before..death,life after life, incredible Loss(Lots of it),sorrow,trauma,grief that felt endless(Many times) and yet Joy relief and ectasy that would make one almost piss himself with careless-ness. I Think I'm ready,I FEEL it and deep deep down know it,for BAMM.
I wil be traveling this summer...towards the west,not shure when,this came to me clearly this morning in a relaxed modus operandi-brain waves were still slown down- while quietly cooking breakfast...the intuition,psychic abiltiies have always been there and have been utilized thru out my life,now with the addition of BAMM,is gonna be deep to see where this all leads.(undrstatement)
Peace,Happiness and all that other good shit.;-) Keith
Sherlock-your're an amazing fellow,Watson.Though You,yourself,not luminescent, you're an amazing conductor of Light"/"Loving You ,Heals Me"-an-NDE'er.""Blessed are those who can give without remembering and take without forgetting."-Trust is abouve ALL else!!"Money,does NOT change people,it ONLY reveals them!"
