The Modern Libertine's diary

[Cortez]

Afternoon mirror affirmations are no good. I've tried and I had the same
problem you did. I think that's why most people dont think they work.
Perhaps they just do them at the wrong time of day and aren't consistent with them. I got the idea from Brent Smith to do them in the
morning because that's when your mind is still halfway asleep and open to your suggestions, but as long as I am home, I never miss a day. Consistency is the key with anything.

The crazy experiences I mentioned are really just the way that girls
react to me...well not just them but everyone else as well. It's like I
have everyone charmed and I can get away with things that other people can't. This is a combination of the subs, my mirror affirmations, and my study over these past years of seduction material(mainly Brent Smith and Cory Skyy) that has pretty much amounted to me saying
whatever the hell is on my mind and amusing myself while being unnattached to the outcome...I don't know why it took severaly years for me to reach that conclusion, but hey, whatever it takes, right?
So I was at this level of indifference a little before going in to the mirror
affirmations and the subs, but it was spotty success at best and I was usually trying to fake it. Luckily I decided thngs need to change.

So far the unstoppable confidence has made me feel invincible.

The approach anxiety has pretty much given me the ability to talk
to any girl I want to.

The Ultra success does exactly what Shannon said and it produces a euphoria and just an overall feeling of powerful success. Also, because
it is not directed towards any particular success, but success in general, I think it really does augment the power of the other subs as
well.

Needless to say it's not very difficult for me to get girls anymore.
I have a girl try to drive all the way from Austin to where I am overnight
just to see me from one day after meeting me one time in Dallas. (I said no, because I already know that my level of indifference would wreck this girls feelings and that type of girl, though ready and willing, really can't handle a guy like me. You have to be compassionate in life.) Oddly enough, I haven't been all that interested in girls lately. I've reached a supreme level of indifference off and on and girls haven't held all that much importance in my life lately. I know that this level is neccersary to go through to get to where you are unattached to any outcome adn really...it feels great. I am finally getting social again after going through this level of nothingness and now I am more powerful than ever. In between this success has been a tremendous amount of emotional catharsis or purging where my beliefs have been replaced with new and powerful ones. This is something everyone on here is going through. Some days you feel great, others you feel like crap, others you feel like your head is being ripped apart. That's fine, you spend a little time with yourself, watch some movies and feel better tomorrow. Emotional catharsis is an old friend of mine. I used to experience it alot back when I meditated with these cd's I got from Holosync that would take your brianwaves down to an awakened delta brainwave for a while. So I was expecting some emotional catharsis going in to this.

So now I am on the Alpha set to what all the fuss is about. All the other kids are doing it!

So last night I had some weird dreams. It almost felt like fever dreams.
You know the ones...where your dreams just feel like absolutel lunacy at points. I had a pretty great day today, though!