Disconnect from negativity within

[mat422]

Holy crap, last night was brutal. Listening to the masked subliminal stirred up some stuff in me that felt about 100 times more powerful than the ultrasonic. I experienced a lot of anxiety. I'll see how it affects me tonight, hopefully it decreases over the next few days. Probably the volume difference I'm not used to.

That being said, I'm just pushing through it all. At this point it doesn't even phase me how intense those feelings can be sometimes. My desire to change is just too strong to let any of that stand in my way.

I really relate to you Matt and I am probably 30 years older-who's counting. It is looking in the mirror reading your comments. I have no answers for your anxiety, I have my own, probably my ego has enveloped me to accept it as the way it is. I am light years more confident than I was at your age, yet still fragile. Last night reading Tolles, "Awakening to Your Life's Purpose" specifically about the pain-body made alot of sense and created lots of anxiety of my own mis-identification I have with myself. He says - my intrepretation - you need to accept the pain-body by being present, observing it and accepting it, so it withers with its cousin the ego. I have read much about achieving happiness from many great people and one of the common themes throughout is- observe yourself, don't identify with your emotions, joy cannot come to you-ever. It must come from within you and who you are, or your conciousness.

Sorry for my rambling. Things will get better-just let go and be you and I will try and do the same-peace.

I think all sufferers of anxiety are looking for an answer, whether consciously or subconsciously. And what you said about your ego enveloping you to accept it, is something I have experienced as well. The only answer we seem to receive is to keep pushing through the anxiety and eventually we will outgrow it. We learn to cope a lot better, but honestly nobody ever has much of an answer.

Like you I also read a lot about not identifying with emotions. These old teachings are very valuable and can improve your life. However, I am a guy that questions everything and as such I don't stick to tradition. My experience with dissolving the ego and not identifying with the emotions is a band aid solution at times. It's comparable to a wound that you ignore instead of seeking medical attention for, the pain may subside, you may convince yourself that all is well, but the truth still lies beneath the surface. The wound may heal on it's own, but sometimes it requires further attention. Subliminals seek to fix the wounds that afflict your mind and heal things from the root.

Hundreds of years ago, this technology was not around. But I can assure you that subliminals are the next step up. Age old wisdom is sometimes looked upon as infallible, believe it or not when I started listening to these subliminals I was actually opposed to it because it wasn't "natural". Nothing could be further from the truth. These subliminals give us access to our minds at an accelerated rate compared to how long it takes using traditional methods.

I guess what I'm trying to say is, the anxiety isn't a part of you. You can understand that concept consciously. But in order to internalize it, you have to experience it. And that is what the subliminals do.

I guess I started rambling too haha. But I just really wanted to let you know about my experience with Tolle. The man rehashed age old concepts and presented them in a way that the general public could digest. He makes a lot of money. Take everything he says with a grain of salt, because I fell into the trap of seeing everything he said as the absolute 100 percent truth.