Disconnect from negativity within

[mat422]

Holy crap, last night was brutal. Listening to the masked subliminal stirred up some stuff in me that felt about 100 times more powerful than the ultrasonic. I experienced a lot of anxiety. I'll see how it affects me tonight, hopefully it decreases over the next few days. Probably the volume difference I'm not used to.

That being said, I'm just pushing through it all. At this point it doesn't even phase me how intense those feelings can be sometimes. My desire to change is just too strong to let any of that stand in my way.

It's not the volume difference, it's the perfect stereophonics. The masked subliminals are always going to present the subliminal audio in lower volume than the ultrasonic. If you'd done the same thing (headphones) with ultrasonics, it would have been even more powerful still. Of course volume is important to be extremely careful with in ultrasonic and headphones.

Yeah, I'm going to stick with the masked. Too much potential risk with ultrasonics.

Although I've been having a bit of a rough past few days. At this point I'm not entirely sure if I'm not used to the more potent effects or if listening to the masked subliminal at night is preventing me from getting restful sleep because of the sound.

Yesterday I developed a bit of a tension headache at the start of the day and then it got worse. A lot of muscle tightness and overall an inability to relax my muscles. I had to really consciously try to let go of the tension, but then anxiety would pop up and cause me to be tense again.

It followed me into today a bit and I'm currently listening to the stress relief sub. It's helping me let go of the tension and I feel like I can relax again. I'm not sure if that's bad to use with the overcome fear sub and will stop me from pushing myself as much, but after a certain point anxiety and stress just leaves me unable to function. Too much of that and I end up with migraine headaches too.

So the question is, is this another part of resistance or is this simply me not getting enough sleep? I honestly can't tell. But I've fallen asleep before with my brother playing a movie in the next room, so I do feel that my mind can fall asleep even with noise. I think maybe the sub is triggering anxiety in me and it's keeping me awake at night. I'll try again tonight and see what happens.