Stage 0, Day 2
I watched this interesting piece of Clavicular - the "looksmaxxer" e-celebrity -
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-5YVwd1TaCk
I had me realizing that my intense desire to skill-build and build myself up - usually via personal projects requiring no other people - is a way for me to build up a pile of proof that I can point to and to reject the people who could potentially reject me.
As if to say: "You're turning down a guy who speaks 5 languages, has written 6 books, is a guitar master, sings, kicks ass at martial arts, is big and tall and handsome? WOW, you must be pretty STUPID to turn down someone like that.."
It might appear to be an exercise in honorable self-improvement when in reality it is a wall I'm building between myself and other people, eroding my ability to connect.
In the looksmaxxing world, the figureheads lay out a list of features that they strive to attain, and when they do it's considered objectively attractive.
However, it's not an impartial list, considering that this list of specifications is a typical description of what is more generally found attractive, but not a prescription that we impose on other people. Furthermore, there's a curated shaming language to attack any person who doesn't buy into their list.
Through this frame, the women are made to be wrong for rejecting such guys while the looksmaxxing men make themselves right.
Possibly related to this: It's interesting how much I'm suddenly longing for something not only sexual, but intimate and tender with a woman.
I watched this interesting piece of Clavicular - the "looksmaxxer" e-celebrity -
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-5YVwd1TaCk
I had me realizing that my intense desire to skill-build and build myself up - usually via personal projects requiring no other people - is a way for me to build up a pile of proof that I can point to and to reject the people who could potentially reject me.
As if to say: "You're turning down a guy who speaks 5 languages, has written 6 books, is a guitar master, sings, kicks ass at martial arts, is big and tall and handsome? WOW, you must be pretty STUPID to turn down someone like that.."
It might appear to be an exercise in honorable self-improvement when in reality it is a wall I'm building between myself and other people, eroding my ability to connect.
In the looksmaxxing world, the figureheads lay out a list of features that they strive to attain, and when they do it's considered objectively attractive.
However, it's not an impartial list, considering that this list of specifications is a typical description of what is more generally found attractive, but not a prescription that we impose on other people. Furthermore, there's a curated shaming language to attack any person who doesn't buy into their list.
Through this frame, the women are made to be wrong for rejecting such guys while the looksmaxxing men make themselves right.
Possibly related to this: It's interesting how much I'm suddenly longing for something not only sexual, but intimate and tender with a woman.
