Yesterday, 01:14 AM
Quote:I experienced that too, but it was deep and nuanced. I know exactly what Shannon meant by focusing the user into his masculinity.
I figured you knew what I meant from your comments in the past, it was just what LionKing said that I was clarifying.
That masculine, grounded feeling in the background did feel good.
Quote:Probably about the same thing, I just explained myself badly. Not another persona but more like a power up effect from the sub was active on me when running PM and then after switching that power up was no longer there. "focusing the user into his masculinity", that focus could perhaps create the effect, or something related to projecting PM's aura component. Expressing and projecting the same thing, maybe.
Like if I could have coffee that'd morph me into the size, shape and smell of the Hulk (without the personality switch) and I'd feel confident being that strong and feeling good that people knew I was that strong, and then next week I had to go to the same places without my coffee (PM), as just me. On OSC, I don't have a similar effect I could point to but I do act more confidently in a lot of situations so I think I'm beginning to trust that more. I'll say that I'm still feeling a lot of doubt, stress, etc when working by myself or thinking about going somewhere; the confidence is more apparent when actually in that situation. I'd hope OGSF would clear that base state out more. Still debating internally whether I'll join you guys on OGSF in 1-2 weeks or just do a rerun of OSC.
What you're explaining is something I have noticed after stopping programs in the past, and with PM too as i'm missing that presence and vibe I had.
The feeling at toastmasters compared to the one previously when on PM was much different, I felt weak, didn't have that presence and it made me feel a bit depressed and down actually. Like I was being paid attention to much more when I had that, but then last week not so much.
I had similar on DMSI when I got a bit depressed at not having the same reactions after I stopped it.
