Yesterday, 10:22 PM
(Yesterday, 04:43 PM)Benjamin Wrote: When I say presence though I don't mean another personality or persona. I'm referring to it as in having a strong presence, like being noticed, standing out, having people drawn to you and such. Confidence, groundedness, being magnetic to other people. That kind of thing.
Probably about the same thing, I just explained myself badly. Not another persona but more like a power up effect from the sub was active on me when running PM and then after switching that power up was no longer there. "focusing the user into his masculinity", that focus could perhaps create the effect, or something related to projecting PM's aura component. Expressing and projecting the same thing, maybe.
Like if I could have coffee that'd morph me into the size, shape and smell of the Hulk (without the personality switch) and I'd feel confident being that strong and feeling good that people knew I was that strong, and then next week I had to go to the same places without my coffee (PM), as just me. On OSC, I don't have a similar effect I could point to but I do act more confidently in a lot of situations so I think I'm beginning to trust that more. I'll say that I'm still feeling a lot of doubt, stress, etc when working by myself or thinking about going somewhere; the confidence is more apparent when actually in that situation. I'd hope OGSF would clear that base state out more. Still debating internally whether I'll join you guys on OGSF in 1-2 weeks or just do a rerun of OSC.
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