Unlocking My Full Expression (OGSF v3 6g)

[Frosted]

Hmm I don't think it's resistance or anything like that, but it also sounds like you guys are describing something slightly different than I am, other than Frosted possibly.

I took it as something around working on trauma, tension in my body and around my eyes.

The tiredness at times i've had too, but I already have issues with that sometimes anyway.

Yeah I don’t think it’s resistance I also think it’s trauma. It’s gotten better as I’ve healed and cleared so it only makes sense it’s trauma.

I noticed today especially when I went down the street that i'm feeling sensitive/vulnerable. It's like things are being worked on and coming up, or like the 'armor' on the outside has temporarily moved and there's this soft underbelly and it doesn't feel good.

First I noticed something similar to when I was doing somatic trauma work ages ago (i'm not doing it at the moment, but it feels similar to this) that when driving before I felt extra hyperaware of everything, a little uncomfortable like it wasn't as automatic and even felt slightly uncomfortable at the thought of parking. I don't usually have this, it was like suddenly I wasn't as confident in my driving abilities and felt a little disconnected.

Walking down the street also felt this vulnerability, I still talked to the staff in the shop I goto regularly but was feeling weird. After the 2 shops I needed to goto I just wanted to go home. I felt a bit anxious, awkward, a bit hyperaware and perceiving more 'threat' in the environment and from others, all of which are trauma type responses. Which tells me again it's whatever OGSF is working on.

I also see the distinct difference between PM and OGSF (so far atleast, I would say it will open up over time as things are worked on). Basically first i'm feeling kind of down that I now seem to have no presence like on PM.

And this thing really shows the difference. When I was leaving the street in my car I heard a loud and aggressive yell, not at me but some crazy person yelling at someone in the street. Well on PM I seen something was going on and decided to park and go and have a look, whereas today my first thought was "No, I don't need this, especially when i'm feeling vulnerable today, if trauma and fear is being worked on I don't need to subject myself to something like that" and I drove home.

So on PM it was like there was this curiosity and excitement of "there may be something interesting happening" and on OGSF "no I need to look out for myself and not subject myself to this needlessly as i'm working to heal trauma" and I naturally made the choice to do so and just go home.

I think the driving thing might be your auto pilot being dismantled due to OGSF3 working through fear that was interwoven with it. So as you deal with it, you become more conscious of your driving, which you are re-learning. At least that’s my best guess.

Yeah the vulnerability is something I’ve noticed too. I think I’ve just gotten used to it. Based on personal experience the hyper awareness sounds like stuff that was already there, but you just weren’t as aware of it, and now it’s right in front of you.

Onto the crazy guy thing. That mindset is definitely from OGSF3. You’ll likely notice a lot of non-action in places where you would’ve taken action in the past. A lot of action we take is because of the programming we were brought up with. It’s like being run by these processes that have run away with themselves, and we’ve been with them so long we don’t even realize.