03-30-2025, 05:11 PM
OSC + DRS v2, Day 53
So I'm back at my place. I did a thingy to improve the quality of subliminal playback which in my opinion and experience is quite important with audio of this density and it feels good.
Hybrid is going down really smooth. I do find myself thinking about things a lot, resolving conflicting ideas and the like. But my overall mood has improved quite a bit. I'm getting hints of wonky sensations here and there (internal, though I'm producing bodyheat so DRS may be firing up, too).
It's just now occurred to me just how well-off financially I am, and how good my living situation is, all things considered - especially the state of the world as it is right now. I'm very comfortable and I'm in a good position to do what I want to do - heal up, achieve success, slay ladies; psychonalytic pursuits are more of a side-effect of my perosnal goals, lol, as I've got a helluva stuff to dig through and I'm in the process of learning how this whole "psyche" thing actually tics.
I'm also thinking how lotsa people still often treat me like a penniless bum of no means, or how often I'm being treated like some sort of half-idiot even though people doing so are usually intellectual midgets in comparison. A lot of this is I think related to the pervasive classism of our times which sells us the lie of a classless society. There's this Polish psychoanalyst Andrzej Leder who calls the particularily Polish/Eastern European form of this bullshit "the Vorwerk relation" (if you're wondering what Vorwerk is, here ya go: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Folwark - a leftover of hundreds of years of systemic serfdom). I could say more but I'd end up ranting on politics, economics and society at large, lewl, and we don't want that, haha.
I'm also finding myself both desiring a sexual relationship with lovely ladies, but really not feeling like pursuing them. I like things to happen organically.
In general I'm glad I decided to finish the run-through of OSC, and I'm glad I decided to try the hybrid track. Can't wait to OGSF things up a bit, though.
So I'm back at my place. I did a thingy to improve the quality of subliminal playback which in my opinion and experience is quite important with audio of this density and it feels good.
Hybrid is going down really smooth. I do find myself thinking about things a lot, resolving conflicting ideas and the like. But my overall mood has improved quite a bit. I'm getting hints of wonky sensations here and there (internal, though I'm producing bodyheat so DRS may be firing up, too).
It's just now occurred to me just how well-off financially I am, and how good my living situation is, all things considered - especially the state of the world as it is right now. I'm very comfortable and I'm in a good position to do what I want to do - heal up, achieve success, slay ladies; psychonalytic pursuits are more of a side-effect of my perosnal goals, lol, as I've got a helluva stuff to dig through and I'm in the process of learning how this whole "psyche" thing actually tics.
I'm also thinking how lotsa people still often treat me like a penniless bum of no means, or how often I'm being treated like some sort of half-idiot even though people doing so are usually intellectual midgets in comparison. A lot of this is I think related to the pervasive classism of our times which sells us the lie of a classless society. There's this Polish psychoanalyst Andrzej Leder who calls the particularily Polish/Eastern European form of this bullshit "the Vorwerk relation" (if you're wondering what Vorwerk is, here ya go: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Folwark - a leftover of hundreds of years of systemic serfdom). I could say more but I'd end up ranting on politics, economics and society at large, lewl, and we don't want that, haha.
I'm also finding myself both desiring a sexual relationship with lovely ladies, but really not feeling like pursuing them. I like things to happen organically.
In general I'm glad I decided to finish the run-through of OSC, and I'm glad I decided to try the hybrid track. Can't wait to OGSF things up a bit, though.
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley
