I think i'm improving, one of my anxiety symptoms consisted on one congested nostril, getting tired and a bit dizzy, also feeling i can't breathe well, just a few days ago when i went out (which makes me feel anxious since unconsciously i believe on the possibility someone could kill me) i felt dizzy which was weird, since OFv3 i never got only dizzy again, then lately i've been feeling it with less intensity and my body gets tense but i only get dizzy nothing else, doesn't make feel like shit which is great.
For the past few days i've been dealing with my compulsive thoughts, same shit as usual, imagining getting killed by a sniper, someone attacks me with an axe, a piano falling on my head and whatever shit my mind comes with to make me feel fear, i just had enough and stopped thinking, don't know how but it worked this time, now i can consciously turn off my wandering thoughts and rest my mind, the first day was a weird feeling, like getting dizzy but comfortable at the same time, then today i just realized i never perceived other people as human beings, only as threats, some shadows roaming my mind and then i just put the image of persons on those shadows and noticed it, that threat was just another human being just like me, there was nothing special, even if it tries to kill me it won't be something from another world, even i could face another human being by myself, most likely this was a belief that was formed when a was a kid and everyone else seemed bigger than me, but now they are small, even a 2 meters guy seems small and fragile, there is nothing special about it, what a joke it was this shit, maybe i can start to relax.
For the past few days i've been dealing with my compulsive thoughts, same shit as usual, imagining getting killed by a sniper, someone attacks me with an axe, a piano falling on my head and whatever shit my mind comes with to make me feel fear, i just had enough and stopped thinking, don't know how but it worked this time, now i can consciously turn off my wandering thoughts and rest my mind, the first day was a weird feeling, like getting dizzy but comfortable at the same time, then today i just realized i never perceived other people as human beings, only as threats, some shadows roaming my mind and then i just put the image of persons on those shadows and noticed it, that threat was just another human being just like me, there was nothing special, even if it tries to kill me it won't be something from another world, even i could face another human being by myself, most likely this was a belief that was formed when a was a kid and everyone else seemed bigger than me, but now they are small, even a 2 meters guy seems small and fragile, there is nothing special about it, what a joke it was this shit, maybe i can start to relax.
