6G bonanza journalings and random musings (Currently: OSC + DRS))

[Have at ye]

Thanks for the additional clarification.

I do believe this anger is an expression of legit beefs which were being forcefully "repressed" by outside circumstances, given from whom I'm cussing out (it's personal beefs mostly with people I've worked for, idiotic family members, stupid girlies and their Oedipal Sonnies, and the like).

I'm putting the "repressed" in quotation marks because actual repression, in psychoanalytic terms (the underlying mechanism of neuroses as per Freud), it is not, I think (or at least is so no longer). Neuroses are symptomized by, like, false memories, intrusive thoughts and repetition compulsion, for instance.

I did call myself a "fat slob" just right now after finishing my workout. It's also due to natural weight fluctuation throughout the day. I think I might be weighing myself too often due to feeling insecure about my weight.