Masculine Prime (Primal Masculinity 5.11g)

[Shannon]

Sabotage like that typically results from triggering some very deep, very early, very low awareness and very irrational part of yourself. It has fixated on some belief that it holds which contradicts what you're trying to accomplish consciously, and because it is so low awareness and irrational, it tends to fight the instructions instead of executing them. Or, as in rare cases like yours, it will be overridden while you listen, and then try to actively undo the results.

I suggest you keep exploring the higher loop counts and see what happens. Perhaps at some point there will be a breakthrough. Also explore listening to the program the moment you start experiencing resistance or self sabotage.