First listening was last night a few hours before bed. I sat in my room and read.
First thing I noticed is that the book i'm reading is about anti-fragility and resilience in the area of physical training. And that I was resonating much more with what I was reading, plus what I read showed me that i've had the right idea in the past with some of my training.
Then maybe 30 minutes in, I had the sudden urge to look through my masculinity books and get rid of a few that are preaching the new age bullshit. What's interesting is I instantly knew which books even if I haven't read 2 of them. One I wasn't sure of I read bits of it which confirmed my suspicion.. anything that spouts nonsense about 'redefining masculinity' is almost without exception nonsense that contributes to weakening men.
Instead of donating or giving away these 3 books I found I threw them in the bin, because I don't want to spread this stuff into the world to contribute to that.
Had a few interesting dreams that I don't remember. I remembered one this morning, but couldn't really figure out the meaning. I got a package of training dvd's from a certain instructor and I had ordered it as a present for a woman I know, I wouldn't fully call her a friend as but sometimes hang out with her when I see my other friend and she comes along. It doesn't make sense as she's not interested in martial arts training. I took it as potentially either it directing me to look at this guys material for ideas for my training, or that it's just working on something around my enthusiasm for training. Why it involved her I have no idea.
I've decided to listen at night, but this morning I had a strong desire to listen, like i'm craving the input and that it's giving me something I really need. I didn't though as i'll stick to nights. Not sure if an extra loop this morning then doing tonight is a good idea or not.
I woke up and instead of wasting time went straight to one thing I usually do later in the day. Then decided to do something i've been putting off because it's uncomfortable, but then another issue come up when trying to deal with it.
Now i'm sitting here feeling depressed, feeling like everything I was feeling that was good is gone. Actually i'm even finding it difficult to think and finish the post properly. I started it enthusiastic now I seem to have forgotten where I was going with it. Suddenly tired, can't concentrate and my motivation to do stuff disappeared.
Along with that still interestingly is the craving to do a loop now. I'm not sure if I should just go with it, do one now and then the normal night loop. Weirdly the feeling is like "I need to listen again as a top up".
First thing I noticed is that the book i'm reading is about anti-fragility and resilience in the area of physical training. And that I was resonating much more with what I was reading, plus what I read showed me that i've had the right idea in the past with some of my training.
Then maybe 30 minutes in, I had the sudden urge to look through my masculinity books and get rid of a few that are preaching the new age bullshit. What's interesting is I instantly knew which books even if I haven't read 2 of them. One I wasn't sure of I read bits of it which confirmed my suspicion.. anything that spouts nonsense about 'redefining masculinity' is almost without exception nonsense that contributes to weakening men.
Instead of donating or giving away these 3 books I found I threw them in the bin, because I don't want to spread this stuff into the world to contribute to that.
Had a few interesting dreams that I don't remember. I remembered one this morning, but couldn't really figure out the meaning. I got a package of training dvd's from a certain instructor and I had ordered it as a present for a woman I know, I wouldn't fully call her a friend as but sometimes hang out with her when I see my other friend and she comes along. It doesn't make sense as she's not interested in martial arts training. I took it as potentially either it directing me to look at this guys material for ideas for my training, or that it's just working on something around my enthusiasm for training. Why it involved her I have no idea.
I've decided to listen at night, but this morning I had a strong desire to listen, like i'm craving the input and that it's giving me something I really need. I didn't though as i'll stick to nights. Not sure if an extra loop this morning then doing tonight is a good idea or not.
I woke up and instead of wasting time went straight to one thing I usually do later in the day. Then decided to do something i've been putting off because it's uncomfortable, but then another issue come up when trying to deal with it.
Now i'm sitting here feeling depressed, feeling like everything I was feeling that was good is gone. Actually i'm even finding it difficult to think and finish the post properly. I started it enthusiastic now I seem to have forgotten where I was going with it. Suddenly tired, can't concentrate and my motivation to do stuff disappeared.
Along with that still interestingly is the craving to do a loop now. I'm not sure if I should just go with it, do one now and then the normal night loop. Weirdly the feeling is like "I need to listen again as a top up".
